How Many Times
Soul's Struggle: A Journey of Desires and Demons
Lyrics
Is there any action I could take to bring you to my world?
Expressing a desire to bring someone into the speaker's world and questioning if any action can achieve that.
Sometimes I stop to buy some time from this ol’ lonely girl
The speaker occasionally seeks solace from loneliness, perhaps through some form of escapism.
She sales it by the ounces, and the weight is always light
Reference to a substance being sold, possibly alluding to a coping mechanism with the weight being metaphorically light.
If I have enough, chances are that I won’t sleep tonight
Implying that having enough of the substance might lead to insomnia.
So I put some on the table, and I dress up for the town
Preparing for a night out, setting the scene for the speaker's actions.
I pull myself a rail and then I take the first one down
The speaker consumes the substance and experiences its effects.
I can always find some time I’ve got her number in my phone
Despite having options, the speaker chooses not to be alone but acknowledges the transient nature of time.
But time ain’t the kind you wanna do alone
Time is not the type of companion the speaker desires.
How many times
Posing a rhetorical question about the frequency of facing challenges or hardships.
Can I fall Down on my knees and cry
Expressing a need to seek solace or guidance during difficult times.
I’m fucking high, feeling dry, I’ve watch this whole world pass me by
Describing a state of being high, emotionally detached, and observing life pass by.
I’m floating like a barrel, and I’m praying like a saint
The speaker feels buoyant yet prays, suggesting a conflict or contradiction in their emotions.
How many times can I be what I ain’t?
Raising the question of authenticity and how many times the speaker can pretend to be something they are not.
If there ever was a reason I should keep off to myself
Questioning the validity of keeping certain reasons or emotions private.
I’d like for you to tell me why you’d set me on yourself
Asking someone to justify their actions of setting the speaker on a particular path or emotion.
What kind of darken magic, really is it that you use
Wondering about the mysterious or compelling force that influences the speaker's choices.
You make me want to scratch my face, you make me have to choose.
Expressing the difficulty of making choices induced by a powerful influence.
I’ve never wanted anything, the way I’ve wanted you
Acknowledging a strong desire for someone, possibly the person mentioned earlier.
If leaving is the puzzle piece your tension is the glue
Suggesting that leaving might be the missing piece in a complex situation, and tension is what holds it together.
Just before I limp away and reconcile the pain
Preparing to face and overcome pain, possibly by leaving a situation.
You swoop in like a cloud and make it rain
Describing a sudden and impactful intervention or change in circumstances.
How many times
Repeating the earlier question about the frequency of facing challenges or hardships.
Can I fall Down on my knees and cry
Reiterating the need to seek solace or guidance during difficult times.
I’m fucking high, feeling dry, I’ve watch this whole world pass me by
Reiterating the emotional state of being high, emotionally detached, and observing life pass by.
I’m floating like a barrel, and I’m praying like a saint
Reiterating the conflicting feelings of buoyancy and prayer.
How many times can I be what I ain’t?
Repeating the question of authenticity and the struggle of being something one is not.
How many times
Repeating the earlier question about the frequency of facing challenges or hardships.
Can I fall Down on my knees and cry
Reiterating the need to seek solace or guidance during difficult times.
I’m fucking high, feeling dry, I’ve watch this whole world pass me by
Reiterating the emotional state of being high, emotionally detached, and observing life pass by.
I’m floating like a barrel, and I’m praying like a saint
Reiterating the conflicting feelings of buoyancy and prayer.
How many times can I be what I ain’t?
Repeating the question of authenticity and the struggle of being something one is not.
How many times can I be what I ain’t?
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