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Tightrope of Despair: Josh Tavares' Struggle with Broken Promises
Lyrics
I've been fighting this shit, longer than I've known ya
I've been struggling with challenges longer than I've known you.
I've been praying on moments that never seem to happen
I've been hoping for significant moments that never materialize.
Follow your steps, follow your words
I'm following your actions and your words.
Say I never deserved the ones I love
Others claim I don't deserve the love I have.
You got me out of here
You rescued me from a difficult situation.
Promised a life of ecstasy and roses
You promised a life of joy and beauty.
Turned me around to sewage water and poison
Instead, you led me into a situation filled with negativity.
Don't know what I'm saying
I'm uncertain about what I'm expressing.
Don't know why I needed
I don't understand why I required this.
To do what I'm doing
I'm doing something without understanding why.
On my knees and pleading
I'm on my knees, begging for something.
Don't know why the blood is coming out of me, rapidly
My blood is flowing out rapidly, and I don't comprehend why.
I wanna go home but now this feels like a tragedy
I want to return home, but the situation feels like a tragedy.
Don't wanna be here in the morning when the lights come on
I don't want to be present when the morning comes, facing the mistakes of the night before.
Mistakes of the night before waking up to my alarm
Mistakes of the previous night haunt me when my alarm goes off.
You tell me everything's fine, but it's really not
You reassure me that everything's fine, but it's not.
You got me on this tightrope that I can't walk
I feel like I'm on a precarious path that I can't navigate.
(I can't walk)
(Reiteration) I can't walk this tightrope.
Don't know how I'm losing versus all these feelings
I'm unsure how I'm losing in the face of these emotions.
All the things your saying, tryna give it meaning
Your words try to give meaning to everything, but I'm confused.
Don't know why the lights went from glowing to flickering
I don't understand why the lights went from bright to flickering.
It's like a blink where everything goes missing
It's like a blink, and everything disappears.
I'm breaking down the pillars you put up to save my shit
I'm breaking down the emotional barriers you built to protect me.
Talking to rubble, arguing over whose listening
Now, I'm left talking to the ruins, arguing over who's listening.
And here I go, you should know
Here I go again, and you should be aware.
You should know
(Reiteration) You should know.
I'm an introvert, except when I'm feeling like an expert
I'm usually reserved, but sometimes I feel like an expert.
Good luck stopping my mouth, words
No luck in stopping my words, they come out unexpectedly.
Come out like sucker punches
My words come out forcefully, catching others off guard.
Outta nowhere, in the silence, outta mind
In silence, out of mind, my words emerge unexpectedly.
Choose your poison, choose your life, I'll choose mine
Choose your path, choose your life, and I'll choose mine.
Mixed opinions, about my brain, you're outta time, you're outta time
Conflicting opinions about my mind, and you're running out of time.
Don't wanna be here in the morning when the lights come on
(Reiteration) I don't want to face the morning after the mistakes of the night before.
Mistakes of the night before waking up to my alarm
(Reiteration) Mistakes of the night before haunt me when the alarm rings.
You tell me everything's fine, but it's really not
(Reiteration) You say everything's fine, but it's not.
I'm hanging off this tightrope that I can't walk
(Reiteration) I feel like I'm hanging off a tightrope, unable to walk it.
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