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Yuh, ugh yuh
Expressing affirmation and frustration.
You see my whole life I been different, yuh
Throughout life, the artist has felt unique.
Tryna make friends tryna fit in, yuh
Struggling to make friends and fit in.
Tryna look cool but I didn't, yuh
Attempts to appear cool were unsuccessful.
Now I got hella addictions
Now dealing with numerous addictions.
What have I done to myself, is there anyway I could fix it
Reflecting on self-inflicted damage, seeking a solution.
The world doesn't see no problems, yea
The world ignores problems.
But they don't really understand it
Misunderstanding the artist's struggles.
You don't know what I been through, situations I got into
Others unaware of the artist's challenging experiences.
It turn a kid a lil vengeful
Difficult situations led to a vengeful mindset.
But what do I do wit my pain, yuh
Coping with pain, needing a new identity.
I can't be actin' the same, I gotta go n represent His name
Choosing to represent a higher power to overcome pain.
I got no one else to blame, yuhhhh
Accepting responsibility for past actions.
So I can't be like these people 'round me, I can't act the same
Rejecting conformity to others, aiming for authenticity.
It's been so long that I been stuck up in my ways
Long-term struggle with personal habits.
Always lookin' for an explanation, where did I go wrong
Seeking explanations for mistakes and wrong turns.
I think I knew, I think I knew all along
Realizing mistakes but being stubborn.
But I'm way too stubborn you could throw the answers in my face
Resistance to accepting straightforward answers.
And I'd prolly be like, I think I know a better way
Insistence on finding alternative solutions.
I been losin' my mind maybe a couple hundred times
Frequent mental struggles and challenges.
I'm so tired of the lies, the excuses I provide, yea
Weary of lies and self-deceptive excuses.
I really be doin' too much, tryna do it on my own for what, yuh
Realizing the futility of self-reliance.
Livin' for me it just ain't enough, I gotta be real I'm callin' my bluff
Recognizing the need for authenticity.
All of this baggage I'm baggin' it up
Confronting and dealing with personal baggage.
Lord knows I been thirsty
Expressing spiritual thirst and seeking fulfillment.
I'm prayin' to God so He fillin' me up
Praying for spiritual replenishment.
Peace, love, grace and mercy
Desiring peace, love, grace, and mercy.
Change ya heart, only He could do it
Emphasizing the transformative power of a higher being.
Every time, man He get me through it
Acknowledging divine assistance in overcoming challenges.
Bottom line He's the one for me, He's the one for you, you just never knew it
Highlighting a universal connection to a higher power.
I get that feelin', pursue it, I gotta be the best that I could be
Embracing a positive feeling and striving for personal improvement.
I don't gotta feel no sympathy, nah nah
Rejecting the need for sympathy.
Yea, one day at a time, I don't gotta move fast
Emphasizing a deliberate, steady pace in life.
One day Ima shine, but let that day be today, cause I forget about my past
Anticipating a future success and emphasizing present actions.
So I ain't never comin' last, this typa love I never had
Commitment to never be the last, expressing newfound love.
You know I gotta give it back, you know I gotta give it back, yeaaaaa
Commitment to reciprocate the received love.
So I can't be like these people 'round me, I can't act the same
Reiteration of rejecting conformity and embracing individuality.
It's been so long that I been stuck up in my ways
Continued struggle with established ways.
Always lookin' for an explanation, where did I go wrong
Searching for explanations for past mistakes.
I think I knew, I think I knew all along
Awareness of personal errors but resisting change.
But I'm way too stubborn you could throw the answers in my face
Stubbornness in the face of obvious solutions.
And I'd prolly be like, I think I know a better way
Preference for alternative solutions despite advice.
I been losin' my mind maybe a couple hundred times
Ongoing mental struggles and challenges.
I'm so tired of the lies, the excuses I provide, yea
Fatigue with self-deception and excuses.
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