Lyrics
Looks like tonight I'm on my own
Expressing solitude tonight.
I've got no right to piss and moan
Acknowledging the absence of the right to complain.
There is a light that's in your eyes
Noticing a familiar light in someone else's eyes.
Reminiscent of my own.
Seeing a reflection of one's own experiences in that light.
My god
Acknowledging a change in personal appearance.
My face has aged to fit my father's disappointed gaze.
Feeling the weight of disappointment resembling the father's gaze.
All Painted Grey Like he is today
Comparing one's appearance to the father's, using the color gray metaphorically.
Runnin outta shit to tell Kayleen
Struggling to find meaningful things to share with Kayleen.
I can never lay down- I've got to be held down
Unable to relax or be vulnerable, needing to stay active.
Counting flaws, I count the sheep I herd around
Enumerating personal flaws while managing a metaphorical flock of concerns.
But I'm Running out Of solid ground
Facing a diminishing foundation of stability.
But you're keepin' me round
Being kept around despite personal struggles.
Like the family hound I'm down and out
Feeling low and defeated but not completely broken.
But not in the ground
Not defeated or buried yet.
My god, My face
Reflecting on the aging process and its impact on appearance.
Has aged to fit my fathers anti-adolescent gaze
Experiencing a critical parental gaze as a teenager.
All I touch just turns away
Noticing a pattern of things turning away upon contact.
Should I hang up the crown
Questioning the value of personal achievements or status.
If it meant the day
Considering sacrificing recognition for a better day.
Was a frame to be stolen
Viewing life as a stolen moment to be hidden away.
And hidden away
Desiring to escape routine and confinement.
No more nights spent nailed in place-
Expressing a desire to break free from stagnation.
I feel so stretched in many ways
Feeling stretched and overwhelmed.
So paint me jade
Metaphorically requesting a transformation into jade, symbolizing renewal.
With dreams washed down the drain
Acknowledging dreams fading or being washed away.
I don't feel the way I'd like to
Expressing a disconnection from desired emotions.
This was not the way I planned my life to be.
Reflecting on life not going as planned.
I keep greeting you with apologies
Apologizing for the constant state of disarray in life.
Saying hey, It's just my life's in disarray
Explaining life challenges as a reason for constant apologies.
I almost dug myself a grave
Admitting to a past near self-destruction.
I fight the thought off everyday
Continuing to resist thoughts of self-harm.
But I'm glad you're here to say
Expressing gratitude for someone's presence despite personal struggles.
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