Lying to Myself
Illusions of Love: Navigating Hollywood's Deceptive Glamour
Lyrics
I'm a little out of touch with reality
I feel disconnected from reality
It's never been that nice to me
Reality has not treated me kindly
I like the pictures I paint the best
I prefer the imaginary world I create
You always seemed more down to Earth
You appeared more grounded
I was a little hesitant at first
I was initially hesitant, but that changed after a night in LA
But after that night in LA, well, you know the rest
Refers to a significant event in LA
But it's not hard to feel that good
Feeling good is easy when intoxicated in Hollywood
When you're drunk in Hollywood
Describes the atmosphere of being in Hollywood
So new to me, but you understood
You understood the new experience with me
And I helped you up on that pedestal
Placing someone on a pedestal
Damn, you looked incredible
Complimenting the person's incredible appearance
Guess coming down's inevitable
Acknowledges the inevitability of falling from the pedestal
Am I out of my mind, was this all in my head?
Doubts about the reality of the situation
Am I making it up, am I not making sense?
Questioning the validity and coherence of thoughts
Were you leading me on, now I'm too sad to tell
Feeling too sad to discern if led on or self-deception
Were you lying to me or was I lying to myself?
Uncertainty if lied to or lied to oneself
I picked out all my favorite things you said
Recalling and cherishing favorite statements
Then like a delusional architect
Comparing to a delusional architect constructing an unstable image
I built you up like a house of cards
Building someone up like a fragile structure
Guess I really loved the idea of you
Loving the idea more than the reality of the person
But the real problem is neither of you
Neither the person nor the idea provides support in a crisis
Can hold me when it falls apart, yeah
Fear of the inevitable collapse
You liked it up on that pedestal
Person enjoyed being elevated but faces the inevitable fall
'Cause damn you looked incredible
Reiteration of the person's incredible appearance
But coming down's inevitable
Highlighting the unavoidable descent from the pedestal
Am I out of my mind, was this all in my head
Repeating doubts about the reality of the situation
Am I making it up, am I not making sense
Questioning the clarity and coherence of thoughts
Were you leading me on, now I'm too sad to tell
Feeling too sad to determine if led on or self-deception
Were you lying to me or was I lying to myself? (ooh)
Uncertainty if lied to or lied to oneself (repeated)
What if I trusted my intuition the way that I trusted you? (ooh-ooh)
Considering trusting intuition as with the person
Did you ever even need me the way that I wanted you?
Questioning if the person ever truly needed the speaker
Am I out of my mind, was this all in my head?
Repeating doubts about the reality of the situation
Am I making it up, am I not making sense?
Questioning the clarity and coherence of thoughts
Am I out of my mind, was this all in my head?
Repeating doubts about the reality of the situation
Am I making it up, am I not making sense?
Questioning the clarity and coherence of thoughts
Were you leading me on, now I'm too sad to tell
Feeling too sad to determine if led on or self-deception
Were you lying to me or was I lying to myself?
Uncertainty if lied to or lied to oneself (repeated)
Lying to myself
Admitting to self-deception
Lying to myself
Repeating admission of self-deception
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