Lyrics
(I'm thinkin') maybe if I crank an idea out
Contemplating the generation of ideas
I'll find a better way to exist
Searching for a better way of existence
And maybe if I sell my soul I
Considering sacrificing integrity or values
Can see the beauty I've always missed
Hoping to discover overlooked beauty
(I) don't know if I'm tethered to my mind
Uncertain about the connection to one's own thoughts
And I can never be who I miss
Feeling unable to be the person missed or desired
Cuz that person
Acknowledging the non-existence of a certain self
He doesn't exist
Questioning personal identity
I always find myself doing
Engaging in activities without genuine interest
Things I don't care about 'cause I
Expressing frustration with pursuing unfulfilling actions
(I) keep telling myself it's the right way
Rationalizing unfulfilling choices as the right path
I lost everything I loved in this
Experiencing loss in the pursuit of misguided goals
Pursuit of something dumb and I
Reflecting on the potential foolishness of endeavors
(I) don't know if I can make it back
Doubting the possibility of recovery
If I can make it back
Expressing uncertainty about a successful return
And still
Continuing despite confusion
I sit on this couch confused
Feeling perplexed while sitting on a couch
I'm trying my best to do
Striving to fulfill expected responsibilities
The things I'm supposed to do
Acknowledging adherence to societal norms
But I still can't see
Expressing a lack of clarity or vision
I can't see the end
Feeling uncertain about reaching an endpoint
I can't see the fun
Unable to perceive the enjoyment in life
And the friends
Mentioning the absence of friends and laughter
And the laughs
Expressing a lack of joy
And the joy
Feeling manipulated or used by others
And I feel like I've been someone's toy
Expressing uncertainty about personal actions
And I don't know if I've done it wrong
Questioning the correctness of life choices
And I don't know if I'm just a lost cause
Contemplating the possibility of being a lost cause
(And) I know I have everything I need
Acknowledging having everything needed materially
So why don't I feel like I'm livin' dreams?
Expressing a disconnect between possessions and fulfillment
And I don't see the worth of it all
Questioning the value or purpose of everything
(and) I feel like thinking's the reason this all came down
Attributing difficulties to overthinking
Crashing down on me
Experiencing a collapse or crisis
I don't wanna be
Expressing a desire to avoid further distress
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