Phoenix
Reckoning Flames: Unveiling the Phoenix's Confession
Lyrics
I cried at the bottom of the shower
I experienced deep emotional pain at a vulnerable moment
This wasn't how I wanted it to be
This situation didn't unfold as I had hoped or planned
When all that heat and all it's power
The intensity and force of emotions dissipated
Burned out in the night like a fever dream
Emotions burned out abruptly in the night like a vivid but fleeting dream
When you fell asleep at five in the morning
Observing your sleep at an early hour, contemplating my own reflection
I looked in the mirror at my face
Realizing a captivating attraction that consumed me gradually
There's a kind of attraction that consumes you in fractions
There's a compelling force that engulfs you in fragments
I didn't notice till it was too late
Unaware until it was too late to recognize this attraction
The phoenix dies in it's own fire
A metaphorical phoenix perishes in its own flames
I was selfish then and a god damn liar
During that time, I was self-centered and deceitful
The phoenix dies and you'll never know
The symbolic phoenix dies, and you remain unaware
That I carry it's ashes wherever I go
I carry its remnants wherever I go, signifying the impact
My rational brain knows that you'll never hear this
A rational realization that you'll never hear these words
But if I'm in your ear, listen to me say
If you could listen, I would express a profound sentiment
I would've rather died than hurt you on purpose
I would rather have faced death than intentionally hurt you
For the ways that I did, I hold a candle of shame
Regret and guilt for the ways I did hurt you
It even flickers in the rain
Even in difficult times, remorse persists
The phoenix dies in it's own fire
Reiteration of the phoenix metaphor, emphasizing self-destruction
I was selfish then and a god damn liar
During that period, I was self-centered and dishonest
The phoenix dies and you'll never know
Emphasizing the phoenix's demise, hidden from your awareness
That I carry it's ashes wherever I go
I continue to carry its remnants, a constant reminder
I wanted to be with you but only if you wanted me
Desiring a connection with you, but only if it's mutual
The way that I treated you weighs heavy on my fragile wings
The consequences of my actions weigh heavily on my vulnerable state
The words that I wrote in that note on your pillow
The sincerity of the words in the note left on your pillow
I meant every word of it
Expressing the authenticity and truthfulness of those words
The phoenix dies in it's own fire
Reiteration of the phoenix metaphor, emphasizing self-destruction
I was selfish then and a god damn liar
During that time, I was self-centered and dishonest
The phoenix dies and you'll never know
Emphasizing the phoenix's demise, hidden from your awareness
That I carry it's ashes wherever I go
I continue to carry its remnants, a constant reminder
The phoenix dies in it's own fire
Repetition of the phoenix metaphor, reinforcing self-destruction
I was selfish then and a god damn liar
During that period, I was self-centered and dishonest
The phoenix dies and you'll never know
Emphasizing the phoenix's demise, hidden from your awareness
That I carry it's ashes wherever I go
I continue to carry its remnants, a constant reminder
Wherever I go
The persistence of carrying the remnants wherever I go
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