In a Ditch
Lost in the Ditch: Unraveling the Tapestry of Love and Loss
Lyrics
just because i shouldn’t take it personally doesn't mean that i won’t
Despite knowing I shouldn't take things personally, I still do.
Even with the best of love i’m lying on my face, muddy legs, in a ditch
Even with the best love, I find myself in a low point, feeling defeated and stuck.
I can’t sing right
Expressing a lack of confidence in one's singing ability.
I’m not the right size
Feeling inadequate in terms of physical size or perhaps not fitting societal norms.
I’m not that fun
Perceiving oneself as not being very enjoyable or entertaining.
I've got mush for a mind
Feeling mentally foggy or confused.
You’ve got other people and a life laid out for you. i’m not coming with
Recognizing that the other person has their own life separate from theirs and won't be part of it.
Who cut each other loose? i know i’m better off. still i cried in the car
Despite knowing it's better to be apart, the pain of separation is still felt deeply.
I can’t sing right
Reiterating a lack of confidence in singing ability.
My face is unkind
Feeling that one's face doesn't reflect kindness or perhaps feeling unattractive.
You were my fun
Remembering the other person as someone who brought joy or fun.
You were on my mind
Constantly thinking about the other person.
Dazzling billboards on the drive home
Noticing flashy advertisements or distractions while heading home.
I visit your town but not for you
Visiting a place associated with the person but not necessarily for them.
I almost mention it to my friends
Almost sharing about the visit with friends but deciding it's not significant enough.
It’s not important
Realizing that certain things are trivial or unimportant in the bigger picture.
Little things go wrong and i collect them in my shirt for later
Noting small mishaps and keeping them emotionally, feeling burdened by them.
Wanna dampen my own face and miss you violently
Wanting to cry intensely and miss the person despite knowing it's not logical or real.
None of that’s real
Acknowledging that these emotions and thoughts about the person aren't based in reality.
Or worth my time
Understanding that dwelling on these thoughts isn't worthwhile.
But haven’t you heard?
Questioning if the other person knows the extent of the emotional turmoil.
I love to lose my mind
Expressing a tendency to enjoy losing control or feeling mentally scattered.
How many times can i start over?
Reflecting on the struggle of starting anew repeatedly.
The nervous grins eat at my guts
Feeling anxious or uncomfortable due to forced smiles or pretense.
Staring at the table for an hour
Spending a prolonged time lost in thought or distress at a table.
I should just leave my jacket on
Considering leaving abruptly, perhaps to avoid further emotional distress.
How many times can i end it?
Reflecting on the repetitive cycle of wanting to end things emotionally.
My heavy breaths hang in the air
Feeling the weight of emotional distress through heavy breathing.
Poured out, gathering between the blankets
Emotional turmoil being spilled out, accumulating but contained.
This never happened
Denial of the emotional experience, trying to convince oneself it didn't happen.
This never happened
Repeating the denial of the emotional experience.
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