Lyrics
I don't say your name out loud
I keep your name to myself and don't vocalize it
And I don't tell my friends about you
I don't share details about you with my friends
If I do I know that you'll no longer be around
Fear that talking about you will lead to your absence
And you'll just be somebody that I knew
You might become just a memory if I disclose our connection
And I hate to have to keep it quiet
It's challenging to keep our relationship a secret
But I don't want you to go just yet
Reluctant to let you go, wanting you to stay a bit longer
You've made me such a pretty liar
I become adept at telling beautiful lies about us
My favorite person nobody knows I've met
You are my favorite person, a secret from everyone
Then a little feeling grows
A growing emotional connection
It's the middle of the night lets go
Impulsive decision to go out in the middle of the night
Car rides with you
Enjoying car rides with you, hiding it from others
While everyone thinks I'm alone
Pretending to be alone while with you
Flying so high
Experiencing euphoria with you
Still we keep it on the low
Keeping our relationship discreet despite the joy
I won't mess this up it's not often that I get
Determined not to ruin the connection, rare and valuable
Time with someone that I think is worth it to regret
Acknowledging the rarity of finding someone worth remembering
Mmm-mmm
Mmm-mmm (vocal expression, possibly representing conflicted emotions)
I could've guessed that we'd love on a timer
Anticipating that love with you has a time limit
For you I didn't mind to walk the wire
Being willing to take risks for you
I've learned two things can be true at the same time
Acknowledging the complexity of simultaneous truths
Having everything with you
Having everything with you but publicly downplaying it
But saying it's nothing
Denying the significance of the relationship
Car rides with you
Repeating the theme of enjoying secret car rides
While everyone thinks I'm alone
Appearing alone while with you, gasping for air metaphorically
Gasping for air
Feeling overwhelmed, possibly by the secrecy
Ignoring all the undertones
Ignoring the subtle signs or hints in the relationship
I won't mess this up it's not often that I get
Recognizing the value of the rare time spent with you
Time with someone that I think I won't want to forget
Fearing the potential regret of forgetting someone special
Mmm-mmm
Mmm-mmm (vocal expression, possibly reflecting emotional conflict)
Mmm-ohhh
Mmm-ohhh (vocal expression, conveying mixed emotions)
Mm-mmm-mmm-mmm
Mm-mmm-mmm-mmm (vocalization, emotional complexity)
Mmmmmm
Mmmmmm (vocal expression, continued emotional conflict)
I don't say your name out loud
Reiterating the secrecy around mentioning your name
And I won't tell anyone
Promising to keep the relationship confidential
I hope you were happy in these little moments with me
Wishing happiness for you in these private moments
I hope I forget everything
Expressing a desire to forget everything about the relationship
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