Don't Follow
Navigating Shadows: Unraveling the Complex Threads of Relationships
Lyrics
I didn't know that you smoked
I was unaware that you smoked.
You joked you'd got yourself into cocaine
You made a joking claim about getting involved with cocaine.
It was a catchy refrain
That claim had a memorable and engaging quality.
I played again and again in my brain
I repeatedly contemplated that claim in my thoughts.
But situations make plain
Situations have revealed the significant distance between us since eighth grade.
How far apart we had grown since eighth grade
You used to remind me of my unchanged body in eighth grade.
When you'd remind me my body had not yet changed
At that time, you suggested I was probably gay.
And I was probably gay
You had a capacity for cruelty, and I would yield to avoid conflict.
You could be meaner than snake shit
Your behavior could be harsh and unkind.
And I'd relinquish the piss
I would give up control each time you demanded it back.
Each time you'd come to reclaim it
No need to overreact or be upset.
No need to get one's undies in a twist
Relax and open your hands, don't clench your fists.
Unball those fists
Don't give me a disapproving or angry expression.
Don't give me that face
Do not pursue me, do not chase after me.
Don't fuckin follow me
You are intelligent enough to know better than that.
You're way too smart for that
My father criticized you as a contemptible person.
My daddy called you a dirtball
I had nothing to say in response, just stood there shocked.
And I had nothing to say
I stood in the doorway, likely with my mouth open in surprise.
Just stood there dead in the doorway
I couldn't blame my father for being concerned.
My mouth most likely agape
Fearful of the mistakes I might make.
I couldn't blame him for caring
Fearful of what I might disclose to authorities.
Scared for mistakes I might make
Fearful of succumbing to substances, like you did that day.
Things I might say to authorities
Do not pursue me, do not chase after me.
Things I might put in my veins like you did that day
We are not even friends anymore.
Don't fuckin follow me
Return to your father and inform him that I am doing well.
We're not even friends
I have my own life, and I will manage without his guidance.
Go back to your dad and tell him that
I'll strive to navigate through life independently.
I'm doing just fine
Emphasizing that I do not need external guidance.
I've got my life
I am self-sufficient, and I'll make an effort to cope.
And I'll try to get by
Despite challenges, I will try to manage.
Without his guidance
Emphasizing the intent to navigate life without external advice.
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