Vacation Song
Journey Through Heartbreak: Kitty Prozac's Emotional Odyssey
Lyrics
I was trapped in a hotel room
Feeling confined in a hotel room
In florida for a week
Specifically in Florida for a week
And all that time my only contact with you was
Limited contact with someone important through the phone
My phone, and i could rarely speak
Difficulty in communication, infrequent talking
And while my body went to disney world i was
Mentally preoccupied while physically at Disney World
Pacing in circles inside my mind
Inner turmoil and restless thoughts
Cus when you told me that you were switching schools
Feelings of abandonment when told about a school switch
I couldn't help but feel like you were leaving me behind
Sense of being left behind
And we were trapped in a cabin on hornby island for fourteen days
Trapped in a cabin, possibly reflecting on a relationship
And all that time i believed i was borderline, cus you said so
Belief in having borderline personality, influenced by someone else
And we were never peaceful, we were fighting always
Continuous conflicts in a relationship
And every morning i said "this day will be okay"
Hopeful mornings turning into distressing nights
But every night i inevitably screamed and cried
Expressing emotional pain through screams and tears
Cus when you told me that you would rather sleep alone
Struggle with the idea of sleeping alone
It was nothing, but from the way i reacted
Overreaction to a seemingly insignificant event
You woulda thought that i had died
Intense emotional response
Oh, you know until you don't know
Uncertainty in relationships
You know until you don't know
Knowledge evolving until it suddenly changes
You know until you don't know and then they're gone
Realizing the value of something only after it's gone
Well i figured some day i'd stop getting thrown away
Expectation of eventually not being rejected
I just didn't think it would take so long
Surprise at the prolonged duration of the rejection
I just didn't think it would take so long
Extended period of anticipation for acceptance
I was trapped in school for thirteen years
Long duration of feeling trapped in school
Kindergarten and every grade
Throughout schooling, feeling like a monster unloved by others
And all that time i believed i was a monster
Belief in personal monstrosity
And nobody would ever love me even if they were paid
Doubt in being loved, even with payment
And my teachers said "oh sweetie, we know you're being bullied
Acknowledgment of being bullied
If it's any consolation, you're pretty damn smart"
Recognition of intelligence as a consolation
But when all anybody seems to care about is your brain
Emphasis on being perceived only for intellectual abilities
It's so incredibly easy to forget you have a heart
Forgetting the emotional aspect of oneself
You know until you don't know
Similar to lines 17-19, emphasizing uncertainty in relationships
You know until you don't know
Reiteration of evolving knowledge in relationships
You know until you don't know and then they're gone
Reiteration of realizing value after losing something
Well i figured some day i'd stop getting thrown away
Repeating the expectation of eventually not being rejected
I just didn't think it would take so long
Repeating surprise at the prolonged duration of rejection
Oh, you know until you don't know
Similar to lines 17-19, emphasizing uncertainty in relationships
You know until you don't know and then they're gone
Reiteration of realizing value after losing something
Well i figured some day i'd stop getting thrown away
Repeating the expectation of eventually not being rejected
I just didn't think it would take so long
Repeating surprise at the prolonged duration of rejection
I just didn't think it would take so long
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