Up to You
Embers of Love: Navigating Heartbreak in Krystal Meyers' 'Up to You'
Lyrics
You gave me your hand so long ago
You extended your support a long time ago
But now our house is burning
Our relationship is in crisis, facing imminent destruction
You're never home
You're consistently absent, never present
I feel sick looking at our picture frames
Seeing our shared memories makes me feel unwell
I turned them down and turned you away
I rejected both the memories and you
I wanted to hear your words my whole life
I desired to hear your comforting words throughout my life
But now they cut me like a knife
Now your words hurt me deeply
Hiding under the covers
Seeking refuge under the covers, avoiding reality
Crushing dreams
Destroying aspirations and hopes
Am I your lover or your enemy?
Uncertain if I am your lover or adversary
And at the end of the day
Reflecting on the events at the end of the day
I never wanted it to be this way
I never intended for our situation to reach this point
You sure it's what you wanna do?
Seeking confirmation if this is truly your choice
I'll leave it up to you
Leaving the decision and responsibility to you
I packed my heart in boxes yesterday
I emotionally packed away my heart recently
I fell asleep last night in my room all alone and afraid
Lonely and fearful, I slept alone last night
Cause my blood is cold and body is numb
Feeling emotionally detached and physically numb
Oh God, what did we become?
Questioning the transformation of our relationship
I feel you love to say that you don't miss me anymore
Sensing that you no longer miss me
But anything I feel I choose to ignore
Choosing to ignore any feelings I have
I pray that once my anger dies I'll live
Hoping that my anger will subside for a chance at life
And once my tears are dry I'll learn to forgive
Aspiring to forgive once my tears have dried
I know the love we had was real at one time
Acknowledging the genuine love we once shared
And if you give me one more chance I promise to try
Pleading for another opportunity, vowing to make amends
Seasons change, lovers bloom and some die
Recognizing the natural progression of relationships
But you'll always be part of my life
Acknowledging your lasting presence in my life
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