Lyrics
When it happened
Reflecting on the moment it occurred
When I finally found the root of the damage
Discovering the origin or cause of the harm
It had grown to be a wound I couldn’t bandage
Realizing the wound has become too deep to heal
We started to wonder how I managed to survive
Questioning how one managed to survive despite the damage
Is it magic
Wondering if there's a mystical explanation
How I always find a reason to panic
Noting a tendency to find reasons to feel panicked
Or how the moment I get scared I can vanish
Noticing the inclination to disappear when scared
For my final trick I’ll disappear before your eyes
Planning to vanish as a final act or coping mechanism
Now you know how much I’m aching
Expressing the extent of emotional pain
Why I lie awake in bed
Unable to sleep due to distress
When I know there’s no escaping
Feeling trapped without any means of escape
From the volume in my head
Referring to persistent thoughts or noise in the mind
I know we’re getting closer to the end
Acknowledging the proximity to an inevitable conclusion or ending
Please imagine
Requesting empathy in understanding the situation
How it feels to know it’s all in my lap when
Feeling responsible for everything and overwhelmed
The fear in my brain starts reacting
When fear triggers reactions in the mind
And I start to wonder how I’ll make it out alive
Contemplating survival in a challenging situation
Now you know what keeps me waking
Explaining the reason behind constant wakefulness
Why my eyes are always red
Indicating tired, strained eyes due to distress
When I know there’s no escaping
Feeling trapped without any means of escape (repeated theme)
From the volume in my head
Continuing struggle with persistent thoughts or noise in the mind (repeated theme)
I know we’re getting closer to the end
Reiterating the nearing of an inevitable conclusion or ending (repeated theme)
I know we're getting closer to the end
Reaffirming the sense of approaching an end
I know we're getting closer
Emphasizing the certainty of reaching a conclusion
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