Lyrics
Life is what you make it said my near death experience
Reflecting on a near-death experience, acknowledging the importance of shaping one's own life.
Life means nothing if I can't have you
Expressing that life loses meaning without the presence of a significant other.
Or so I told myself for the past 4 years I've lived
Over the past four years of separation, the speaker has been convincing themselves of the significance of living without their loved one.
Without you
Stating the duration of living without the loved one.
I told myself if you ever left I'd end it all and embrace death
Contemplating suicide if the loved one were to leave, emphasizing the depth of emotional pain.
But I stick around just to reminisce about our sex, or our first kiss
Choosing to endure life despite the pain, driven by memories of intimate moments.
It's bad for me, and I know that but you cross my mind so damn often
Acknowledging the detrimental impact of reminiscing about the loved one, even though it's emotionally harmful.
Captured memories, when we both believed it would last and I can't help but wonder
Recalling happier times when both partners believed their love would endure, questioning the permanence of those memories.
If you do the same
Wondering if the loved one thinks about the speaker in the same way.
Why would you do the same
Puzzled about the loved one possibly making the same choices and experiencing similar emotions.
I wish I was attractive enough for you
Expressing a desire to be more physically attractive to the loved one.
It's not enough
Realizing that physical attractiveness alone is insufficient to mend the relationship.
It's not enough
Reiterating the insufficiency of physical attractiveness in resolving emotional pain.
I know we're different people but it still hurts so much
Despite recognizing differences, the emotional pain of separation remains intense.
The self-hatred
Acknowledging self-hatred as part of the emotional struggle.
The isolation
Expressing feelings of isolation amid the emotional turmoil.
Everything wilts
Conveying a broader theme of decay or decline in all aspects of life.
Everything wilts
Repeating the theme of decay and emphasizing its universal nature.
And unlike nature, is buried
Comparing the decay in life to nature but highlighting that, unlike nature, there is no possibility of revival.
Will never bloom again
Expressing a sense of finality, stating that the emotional and personal deterioration will never be reversed.
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