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She wanted to hang out and I pretend I’m fine
Feigning contentment when she suggests hanging out, though internally struggling.
But it’s bullshit, I’m freaking out
Expressing frustration and anxiety, feeling overwhelmed.
She goes back home
She returns home.
And I get stoned
Turning to substance use (getting stoned) as a coping mechanism.
So don’t think it, you’ll jinx it
Warning against optimistic thoughts that might bring bad luck.
You’re probably right she’s just being nice
Skeptical about her intentions, considering her kindness as a facade.
But I don’t want to think about it anymore tonight
Expressing a desire to avoid overthinking the situation.
If I do I’ll see if I can fly
Fantasizing about flying if he dwells on thoughts.
Dumb enough to try it but too fucked to go and drive
Playfully considering risky behavior but acknowledging impairment.
So I’ll stay home and just get stupid high
Choosing to stay home and use substances excessively.
Bad news, forgotten plans
Mentioning disappointing news and abandoned plans.
She bailed so hard for some dumb champagne bar
She canceled plans for a seemingly trivial reason (champagne bar).
Is it bullshit? I don’t know
Uncertain if her reason for canceling is genuine or not.
She’s go back home
She goes back home again.
And I get stoned
Returning to substance use as a response to disappointment.
But it's alright, the leagues weren’t right
Finding solace in the fact that his dreams were not realistic.
What do I know of being in the show?
Questioning his understanding of being part of a performance or display.
But I don’t want to think about it anymore tonight
Reiterating the desire to avoid dwelling on negative thoughts.
If I do I’ll see if I can fly
Revisiting the idea of attempting something daring if he thinks too much.
Dumb enough to try it but too fucked to go and drive
Recognizing the impracticality of risky behavior due to impairment.
So I’ll stay home and just get stupid high
Opting to stay home and use substances excessively as an escape.
Maybe so, maybe not
Contemplating the uncertainty of the situation.
Either way I’m where I want to be
Content with the current state, regardless of uncertainties.
As relieved as bummed out
Experiencing a mix of relief and disappointment.
Maybe there are answers I should seek
Considering the possibility of seeking answers to life's uncertainties.
(But I’m not looking for them)
Expressing a lack of interest in actively seeking answers.
Because speculations easier on me
Preferring speculation over seeking concrete answers for personal ease.
So I'll stay home and just get stupid high
Choosing to stay home and use substances excessively as a coping mechanism.
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