Lyrics
I never meant what i said i just said it
I spoke without meaning what I said
You always meant what you said i still read it
You consistently meant your words, and I still analyze them
Conversations gon end cause i dead it
Our conversations will end because I've put an end to them
Let me tell it clear cause
I want to make it clear because
You say you hate the way i think
You claim to dislike my thought process
And i say i hate the way you drink
I express my dislike for the way you consume alcohol
And i'm falling back into a sleep
I'm sinking back into a state of unconsciousness
And she calling up cause she want me
Someone is reaching out because they desire me
Yeah why the fuck it me yah
Questioning why it's always me
What i'm sposed' to love now
What am I supposed to love now?
Who i'm sposed' to be yah
Who am I supposed to be now?
I can't open up now
I can't open up emotionally now
The blessings start to leave yah
Blessings are leaving, and I feel it
And money running up now
Money is accumulating, but I'm burdened with grief
Cause i got lots of grief
Expressing the weight of my sorrows
So you can tell me it's ok that you done with love
Others may say it's okay that you've given up on love
But it comes crashing down again when you love to lust
But the reality hits when pleasure and desire collide
And i could talk to all your friends but i talk to drugs
I could seek advice from friends, but I turn to substances
And i could tell you all my sins but i'd rather burn
Rather than confessing my sins, I'd prefer self-destruction
You got a lot on your mind i see it coming through
You're burdened with thoughts, and I can sense it
I don't got shit in my life
I have nothing significant in my life
I don't got shit to lose
I have nothing to lose
And i'm so tired of myself but i'm more tired of you
I'm exhausted with myself, but even more so with you
Cause i've been fighting myself
I've been battling with myself
How can i fight with you
How can I engage in a conflict with you?
Moving around in circles and it ain't working
Moving in circles, but it's not effective
I was tripping in the backroom i keep on learning
I was lost in a state of confusion, but I continue to learn
Love is an attachment and it ain't worth it
Love is an attachment that isn't worthwhile
I don't deserve it
I feel undeserving of love
Cause my sins are burning
My sins are causing pain
And you're probably worth it
Perhaps you're worth it, but I hesitate to risk it and fall
But i don't wanna risk it all just to fall i can't do that to myself
I won't sacrifice everything just to experience failure
So you can tell me it's ok that you done with love
Others may say it's okay that you've given up on love
But it comes crashing down again when you love to lust
But the reality hits when pleasure and desire collide
And i could talk to all your friends but i talk to drugs
I could seek advice from friends, but I turn to substances
And i could tell you all my sins but i'd rather burn
Rather than confessing my sins, I'd prefer self-destruction
You got a lot on your mind i see it coming through
You're burdened with thoughts, and I can sense it
I don't got shit in my life
I have nothing significant in my life
I don't got shit to lose
I have nothing to lose
And i'm so tired of myself but i'm more tired of you
I'm exhausted with myself, but even more so with you
Cause i've been fighting myself
I've been battling with myself
How can i fight with you
How can I engage in a conflict with you?
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