Soul is Mine
Embracing the Shadows: Lauren Anderson's Soulful Journey
Lyrics
My momma told to me when I was growing up
Received advice from mom during childhood about attracting a man.
You wanna catch a man better suck in that gut
Emphasizes the importance of physical appearance in attracting a partner.
And my dad said, you wanna rock and roll
Father's advice on the sacrifices required for a rock and roll lifestyle.
Be prepared to sell your soul
Being ready to make significant sacrifices, possibly compromising moral values.
The demons come at night, that's what I'm told
Reference to challenges (demons) that come at night, creating emotional numbness.
Like to play pretend and make your heart feel cold
Engaging in pretense, numbing emotions, and playing a role to cope.
and I only see the angels when it rains
Positive experiences (angels) are rare and only happen during difficult times.
They're out just to collect their pay
Suggests that positive forces also have a motive, possibly related to self-interest.
And my heart is as black as night
Describes a dark and troubled emotional state.
and my eyes all you can see is the white
Contrast between the dark heart and the visible white in the eyes, hinting at internal conflict.
and I can feel it in my gut I aint fine
Expresses a gut feeling of being not okay.
but at least my soul is mine
Finding solace in the ownership of one's soul despite internal struggles.
So I head down to the crossroads to find a home
Searching for a place of belonging or understanding.
But after 7 days was still alone
Despite efforts, the search for belonging remains unfulfilled after a week.
So I went to the river to float away
Turning to a river metaphorically to escape and forget past troubles.
To drown my troubles of yesterday
Trying to overcome and forget the challenges faced in the past.
I feel that darkness down to my toes
Feeling the darkness deeply, affecting the entire being.
it makes me wanna shout till my body gets old
Intense emotional response, a desire to express emotions loudly.
The devil has made me feel this way
Attributing the emotional state to the influence of the devil.
he crawled inside and then he stayed
Describes a lasting impact of negative influences on the individual.
And my heart is as black as night
Reiteration of the dark emotional state.
and my eyes all you can see is the white
Continued contrast between the dark heart and the visible white in the eyes.
and I can feel it in my gut I'm not fine
Reaffirmation of not feeling okay internally.
but at least my soul is mine
Finding comfort in retaining ownership of one's soul despite internal struggles.
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