Lyrics
I thought I'd scream it all if I sought to speak of things so bleak at all
I felt overwhelmed and thought expressing the bleak things verbally would be like screaming it all out.
So I kept it to myself
Due to the overwhelming nature of my thoughts, I chose to keep them to myself.
Locked up inside my head
My thoughts are confined within my mind, not shared with others.
But now I'm decaying from within
Now, my internal state is deteriorating or breaking down.
Each day grows longer, yet somehow the same
Time seems to pass slowly, and each day feels monotonous or repetitive.
Engines and tires that seem to spin in place
There is a sense of stagnation, as depicted by engines and tires spinning in place.
Oh, what did I wish for that landed me here? I'll never know
Expressing regret or confusion about the unspecified wish that led to the current situation.
Just that it only gets worse
Things are getting progressively worse over time.
Aspiring to new lows
Setting low aspirations or goals, possibly reflecting a sense of hopelessness.
How many years has it been?
Reflecting on the passage of time, questioning how many years have passed.
Somewhere back there the colors went away
At some point in the past, vibrant colors disappeared from life.
All that's left is dissonant and grey
What remains is discordant and grey, suggesting a lack of harmony or joy.
All that's left is all that's left
Emphasizing the emptiness or bleakness of the present state.
The things we long to control will grow to control us
Things we desire to control can end up controlling us, indicating a loss of agency.
I want to see where I've been
Expressing a desire to revisit the past and understand one's journey.
I want to know what it fucking meant
Seeking meaning or understanding from the past experiences.
An old man's face reflects back at me. Woesome, weary, I've never thought so clearly
Seeing an old man's reflection, feeling sorrowful and tired, gaining clarity in thought.
It gets worse
Affirmation that the situation is deteriorating or becoming more challenging.
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