Bad Bitch
Embracing the Contradictions: Journey of a Bad Bitch
Lyrics
I don't recognize me
I feel disconnected from my own identity.
Had a plan but it's a memory
My original plan or goal is now just a distant memory.
And I'm talking to myself, and empty space, and to my doorman who has seen me fall apart
I engage in internal dialogue, talk to empty spaces, and confide in my doorman who has witnessed my emotional breakdowns.
I see rings and wedding things but I'm so far from doves
Despite seeing symbols of commitment (rings and wedding things), I feel far from experiencing love and happiness.
Feather kisses in the rain and laughing in the dark
I remember moments of joy (feather kisses in the rain, laughing in the dark), but now it's hard to let go of them.
Was happy once before but letting go is just so hard
I was happy in the past, but moving on from that happiness is challenging.
I'm supposed to be
There's an expectation or pressure on me.
A bad bitch
I am expected to embody the qualities of a strong, confident woman.
I'm so tired of this sad shit
I'm tired of feeling sad and overwhelmed by emotions.
People falling in love, I'm over all the buzz, enough is enough
I'm frustrated with the prevalence of romantic love; I've had enough of the hype around it.
How am I supposed to be a bad bitch
Reiterating the pressure to be a strong, independent woman.
When I'm falling for another stupid sales pitch
Despite trying to be strong, I find myself falling for deceptive sales pitches or false promises.
Called me up drunk again said you miss this
Received a call from someone intoxicated expressing a desire for the past.
But let's be honest
Emphasizing the importance of honesty in the following statements.
It's convenient for you when I hurt
Pointing out that the other person finds it convenient when I'm in pain.
Our endless talks, the sun came up mean nothing at all
Past meaningful conversations lose significance; the sunrise holds no value.
My friends will laugh and hate your guts, but I'm at your beck and call
Despite friends disapproving, I am readily available for the person's needs.
Though I've tried leave you behind it's relapse and withdrawals
Attempts to move on are hindered by relapses and withdrawals.
I'm supposed to be
Reiteration of the expectation to embody strength.
A bad bitch
Expressing fatigue from the constant emotional struggles.
I'm so tired of this sad shit
Similar to line 9, expressing frustration with the prevalence of romantic love.
People falling in love, I'm over all the buzz, enough is enough
Reiterating that the hype around love has become too much.
How am I supposed to be a bad bitch
Rephrasing the pressure to be a strong, independent woman.
How am I supposed to be a bad bitch
Repetition for emphasis on the internal struggle.
How am I supposed to be
Expressing uncertainty about maintaining strength.
How am I supposed to be
Continued uncertainty about maintaining strength.
How am I supposed to
Repeating the uncertainty and internal conflict.
How am I
Final repetition, emphasizing the ongoing struggle.
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