Portrait of a Cigarette Smoker at 19
Embracing Life's Fragility at 19
Lyrics
I used to be a stereotype
I used to conform to a widely recognized pattern or image
Half alive with half open eyes
I felt only partially alive with half-open eyes
With a one track mind
My thoughts were focused on a single direction
And a flawed design
I had a flawed or imperfect nature
Feeling like I was lost
I felt as if I were lost
At sea at only the age of 19
I experienced a sense of aimlessness at the young age of 19
Floating around in alcohol and apathy
I was adrift in a sea of alcohol and apathy
Taking in too much caffeine and nicotine
I consumed excessive amounts of caffeine and nicotine
If we make it outta here alive
If we survive this period
Just say you won't look back to see
Promise not to dwell on the past
Just who we left behind (there might not be a next time)
Don't look back at those we've left behind (there might not be a next time)
With all the ups and downs and turn arounds (might not be a next time)
Reflecting on the ups, downs, and turnarounds (there might not be a next time)
To the breaking up to breaking down (might not be a next time)
Considering both the breakup and breakdown (there might not be a next time)
Yeah we were the ones to say (there might not be a next time)
We were the ones who used to say (there might not be a next time)
I used to be a stereotype
I was once a stereotype unrecognizable to others
Someone you'd never recognize
Someone people wouldn't easily identify
With fingers so yellow
My fingers were stained yellow, matching the yellow skies
That they matched the yellow skies
Describing a distinct aspect of my appearance
And there was a few things I memorized
I memorized a few things from blurry memories
From all those blurry times
Recollections from hazy times
Like bottles clinking under blinking signs
Notable memories include bottles clinking under blinking signs
And a few last words from long lost friends of mine
Last words from friends lost in the past
If we make it out of here alive
If we survive this ordeal
Just say you won't look back to see
Promise not to dwell on the past
Just who we left behind (there might not be a next time)
Don't look back at those we've left behind (there might not be a next time)
With all the ups and downs and turn arounds (might not be a next time)
Reflecting on the ups, downs, and turnarounds (there might not be a next time)
To the breaking up to breaking down (might not be a next time)
Considering both the breakup and breakdown (there might not be a next time)
Yeah we were the ones to say (there might not be a next time)
We were the ones who used to say (there might not be a next time)
And if we make it outta here alive (if we make outta here alive)
If we survive this ordeal (if we make out of here alive)
Just say you won't look back to see
Promise not to dwell on the past
Just who we left behind
Reflect on who we've left behind
Just who we left behind
-After all the fuck ups and fallouts (there might not be a next time)
After experiencing mistakes and fallout (there might not be a next time)
With all the ups and downs and turn arounds (might not be a next time)
Reflecting on the ups, downs, and turnarounds (there might not be a next time)
Through all the breaking up to breaking down (there might not be a next time)
Throughout the breakup and breakdown (there might not be a next time)
Yeah we were the ones to say (there might not be a next time)
We were the ones who used to say (there might not be a next time)
There might not be a next time (might not be a next time)
Emphasizing the uncertainty of a future opportunity (might not be a next time)
Words to live by
Encouragement or reassurance that things are okay
we're all doing just fine
Assurance that everyone is doing well despite challenges
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