christmas eve alone this year
Christmas Eve Away: Reflections on Longing and Solitude
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I'm in snowy Manhattan, December 22
I find myself in snowy Manhattan on December 22.
Always hoped this would happen but to tell you the truth
I always wished for this to happen, but honestly, I'd rather be in Oxford.
I wish I was in oxford
I wish I were in Oxford with my friends, enjoying a beer.
With the boys and a beer
I am alone, spending Christmas Eve without company this year.
but I'm spending Christmas eve alone this year
I've done times square at midnight, went shopping on fifth
I've experienced Times Square at midnight and shopped on Fifth Avenue.
Crossed snow in new york off of my bucket list
I checked off snow in New York from my bucket list.
But it's hard to be happy
Despite the experiences, it's challenging to be happy when you're home and I'm here.
When you're home and I'm here
I'm spending Christmas Eve alone this year.
Spending Christmas eve alone this year
I can't tell if I lied when I said
I'm unsure if I was truthful when I said this was the best decision for me.
That this was the best thing for me
Being away from family and friends feels challenging, starting many days with airport delays.
Being away from my whole family and friends
To start half of my days with airport delays
-And I know that I would've died to be here
I acknowledge that I would have eagerly chosen this path eight years ago.
If you asked me eight years ago
I'm engaged in writing music and selling out shows, but I would give it up to be home for Christmas this year.
I'm writing music and selling out shows i know
But I'd make it all disappear
-to spend Christmas this year at home
-Back to an empty hotel
I return to an empty hotel, where at least I can sleep.
At least I can sleep
But waking up by myself's no fairy tale for me
Waking up alone is not a fairy tale for me.
I know it could get worse than a music career
I understand that things could be worse than having a music career.
But I'm spending Christmas eve alone this year
Yet, I'm spending Christmas Eve alone this year.
I can't tell if I lied when I said
That this was the best thing for me
I question if I was honest when I claimed this was the best decision for me.
Being away from my whole family and friends
Being away from family and friends remains challenging, dealing with frequent airport delays.
To start half of my days with airport delays
And I know that I would've died to be here
-if you asked me eight years ago
-Cos I'm writing music and selling out shows I know
-But I'd make it all disappear
-To spend Christmas this year at home
I would give up my music career to be home for Christmas this year.
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