Lyrics
I've been thinking a lot
I've been contemplating extensively
Bout the things that we did
About the actions or experiences we shared
When I'm feeling alone, when I'm feeling alone
During moments of isolation or loneliness
(When I'm feeling alone)
(Repeated) Emphasizing the feeling of loneliness
When I'm feeling alone, yeah
Continuation of feeling alone
Pain make me lose control over my head
Pain causes a loss of mental control
But fuck it cuz this hurts bad so I can't think straight
Despite this, the pain is so intense that it's hard to think clearly
I've been praying to god and running out of faith
Praying to God but losing belief or trust
Cuz I been asking for help but he ain't listening
Seeking help but feeling unheard or ignored by God
I've been drinking too much, I'm at the bar again
Drinking excessively at a bar once again
Taking shot after shot, can't even feel my face
Consuming alcohol to the point of numbing emotions
Looked myself at the mirror, who did I become?
Self-reflection in the mirror, questioning personal identity
But fuck it, i don't really care cuz I'm already drunk
Disregarding concerns as drunkenness takes over
I lost my car keys so I can't drive home
Lost car keys, unable to leave
And now I'm staring at this picture of us on the phone
Staring at a picture of the past relationship
Who is that?, is that me?
Questioning one's own identity in the relationship
Look at her, who is she?
Questioning the partner's identity or actions
And sometimes I be missing who I used to be
Missing the former self, feeling a loss of identity
Where did my soul go?
Feeling disconnected from one's soul
She made me so cold
Attributing emotional coldness to the partner
You left my heart sore
Heartache caused by the partner's actions
Tell me why you did me wrong
Asking the partner for an explanation of their actions
Cuz, I don't know
Expressing confusion about the situation
Guess that I'm just not enough
Feeling inadequate or insufficient
And I'm not superstitious
Denying belief in superstitions
You was acting suspicious
Feeling suspicion towards the partner's behavior
And tell me why you look so happy in every single picture?
Questioning why the partner appears happy in pictures despite the breakup
Told myself I got to stop making all these stupid wishes
Realizing the futility of making hopeful wishes
Can't believe in love no more
Losing faith in love
I turned my pain into addiction
Transforming emotional pain into addiction
I'm alone now, on my own now
Being alone and trying to distance oneself from the partner
Trynna stay away from you, what you gon do now?
Asserting independence and challenging the partner
Cuz I can't bleed no more
Feeling emotionally drained and unable to suffer more
I'm running out of blood
Metaphorically running out of emotional strength
Shit still feeling really bad like it did before
Continued emotional distress despite attempts to cope
I'm laying on the floor
Symbolically lying on the floor, overwhelmed by pain
I'm trynna make this song
Creating music as an outlet for pain
Pain will never go away so I'm getting numb
Accepting that pain will persist, seeking numbness
I got to let you go, and do the same you did
Realizing the need to move on as the partner did
But fuck, cuz I don't need attention from another bitch
Rejecting the need for attention from others
I needed you and me, I had a lot to give, but it is what it is, oh
Acknowledging the willingness to invest in the relationship
I needed you and me, I had a lot to give, but it is what it is, oh
Reiterating the desire to invest despite the outcome
I guess it's wasn't meant to be
Accepting that the relationship wasn't destined to succeed
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