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I feel like I got demons on my shoulders
I feel burdened by inner struggles or challenges.
Thinking to myself like I'm finna go nuts
Contemplating my mental state, feeling on the verge of losing control.
And when you switched up on me I was tore up
Emotionally hurt when you betrayed me.
But ima solid built from my toes up
I am resilient and strong from head to toe.
And you ain't gotta question if I'm down to ride
No need to doubt my loyalty; I'm committed to supporting others.
Cuz if my brothers call me yunno ima slide
Ready to act in solidarity with my close friends (brothers).
Tryna take mine it's gon be a homicide
If you threaten what's mine, it may lead to a violent confrontation.
Cuz I'll be damned if I gotta they see mommas cry
I refuse to let mothers suffer; I'll go to great lengths to prevent it.
And I was locked down when my nigga TU died
During my incarceration, a friend named TU passed away.
Shit ain't been the same ever since you died
Life hasn't been the same since TU's death.
And Ion fuck wit niggas who be playing two sides
Avoiding those who play both sides in loyalty.
So you wit me or you not and you better choose wise
Choose sides wisely in loyalty to me.
Everythang I been thru done turned my heart cold
My experiences have made my heart emotionally distant.
But ima stand tall never bend and never fold
I stand tall despite challenges and won't compromise.
I done felt some pain that nobody else knows
I've endured pain unknown to others.
But this the life that I chose
This challenging life is my chosen path.
I done tried my hardest
I've given my best effort.
But the devil keep calling
Temptation and negative influences persist.
And I can't get away if I'm just bein honest
I can't escape the struggles, being truthful about my situation.
Cuz the ghetto where my heart is
The struggles of the ghetto are close to my heart.
And I'm stuck up in this lifestyle
Stuck in a challenging lifestyle.
But ima rock until it's lights out
I'll persist until the end.
And I know they want me dead and gone
Feeling the threat of harm from others.
So I can't ever put this pipe down
I can't let go of the weapons due to the persistent danger.
Look
Expressing a transition in thoughts or a change in focus.
I been in the streets ever since the 7th grade
Been involved in street life since seventh grade.
I use to wear the same pair of shoes everyday
Experienced poverty and lack of resources.
I just pray to god that I see some better days
Hoping for better days, praying for improvement.
Cuz it ripped my heart to see my cousin in that grave
Heartbroken witnessing my cousin's burial.
And since yo since yo heart stopped it's like I can't feel mine
Since your passing, I feel numb and disconnected.
Got me feeling like I needa tote a steel nine
Considering carrying a weapon for self-defense.
See when I'm in my thoughts Ion ever feel fine
In deep thoughts, struggling to find peace.
If you ain't got years you ain't did no real time
True hardship only comes with significant time served.
And I'm sorry momma i was tripping
Apologizing to my mother for past mistakes.
Tried to tell me everyday but I ain't listen
Ignoring daily advice, causing pain to loved ones.
When I seen you crying at my sentence
Your tears at my sentencing haunt me.
It broke me down now im just reminiscing
Reflecting on past mistakes while incarcerated.
Sitting in that cell I was feeling all alone
Feeling isolated and lonely in a prison cell.
Like what's the point of living life if all my niggas gone
Questioning the purpose of life without friends.
Struggling everyday it's so hard to go on
Every day is a struggle, making it hard to persevere.
Man i'm living so wrong
Admitting to living a morally wrong life.
Let it ride
Accepting and living with the consequences.
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