falling
Falling Through Life's Expectations
Lyrics
They told me I was creative
Feeling acknowledged for creativity.
They told me I'd probably make it
Expectation of success based on feedback.
Feels pretty hard when all I do is pay rent
Struggling with financial responsibilities.
Don't understand how this world makes any sense
Perplexed by the world's lack of coherence.
Working everyday to give my life away
Working tirelessly, sacrificing for others.
That shit cost much more than I'm willing to pay
Cost of commitments is overwhelming.
I can't keep up with being somebody else
Struggling to maintain authenticity.
They ask for way too much, I can't escape this hell
Feeling trapped by societal expectations.
And everything just feels so meaningless
Existence seems devoid of purpose.
Don't know how much more of myself I can give
Questioning personal limits of giving.
Losing sleep with all my anxiety
Anxiety causing sleep deprivation.
How am I supposed to fit into society
Challenged to conform to societal norms.
I'm falling, I'm falling
Expressing a sense of falling, vulnerability.
I can't believe that I'm falling
Surprised or disbelieving in the fall.
I've fallen, I've fallen
Acknowledgment of having fallen.
I can't believe that I've fallen
Reflecting on the reality of the fall.
Sometimes I play with fire for fun
Engaging in risky behavior for stimulation.
At least it makes me feel like I'm someone
Seeking identity through risky actions.
Half the time don't know what I prefer
Uncertainty about personal preferences.
Burning myself giving or giving others the hurt
Choosing to hurt oneself or others.
I'm sorry I don't mean to be this way
Apologizing for unintended behavior.
I'm bleeding on the inside trying to live another day
Internal struggles affecting well-being.
I just don't know where to put all of my pain
Difficulty managing emotional pain.
It escapes my mouth before I know what to say
Verbalizing emotions without control.
And everything just feels so meaningless
Reiteration of life's perceived meaninglessness.
Don't know how much more of myself I can give
Questioning the extent of self-sacrifice.
Losing sleep with all my anxiety
Anxiety-induced sleeplessness persists.
How am I supposed to fit into society
Struggling to conform to societal expectations.
I'm falling, I'm falling
Reiteration of the feeling of falling.
I can't believe that I'm falling
Disbelief or shock at the ongoing fall.
I've fallen, I've fallen
Acknowledgment of having fallen.
I can't believe that I've fallen
Reflecting on the reality of the fall.
You think I'm all rainbows and butterflies
Challenging stereotypes of positivity.
What if I told you, I've just been telling lies
Admitting to falsehood in self-presentation.
Sorry to break it to you I'm just human
Embracing human vulnerability and imperfection.
Can't take another day of this I'm bout to lose it
Expressing intense frustration and desperation.
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