Hate Me
Breaking Chains of Self-Hate: Lindsay Tatman's Powerful Reflection
Lyrics
You manipulate me, bet you didn't know it
You have a controlling influence on me, perhaps unintentionally.
Did you have any idea that you put me through this
Were you aware of the emotional turmoil you were causing me?
Everything I say seems to be wrong
My words are often criticized or dismissed by you.
Cause you won't let me finish sentences or words to my songs
You prevent me from expressing myself fully in my music.
Nothing ever seems to be good enough
Nothing I do seems to meet your standards.
I know this because you try and perfect it with your touch
You attempt to perfect things with your influence.
When I'm around you my feelings don't matter
My feelings become insignificant when I'm with you.
Cause if they got in the way of you your world would shatter
Your world would collapse if my feelings interfered.
Why you got me feeling like I'm crazy
You make me question my sanity.
It seems the more I talk to you the more I hate me
Conversations with you lead to self-hatred.
You make me feel like there's no way I could escape it
You make escape seem impossible.
Cause I can't let you go without you always chasing
I can't let go of you, as you always pursue me.
Somehow I'm still seeking your approval
I seek your approval despite everything.
If I eat less will that make me more beautiful
Questioning whether altering my appearance will gain your approval.
Never thought this would be something I would go through
Unexpectedly experiencing this challenging situation.
So tell me will I finally be good enough for you
Will I ever meet your expectations?
What's the reason you're obsessed with playing games
Wondering why you enjoy playing emotional games.
Always fighting for control, just to have it go your way
Constantly seeking control, even if it means others suffer.
Keep putting others down, that'll take up your time
Putting others down as a way to fill your time.
Won't have a chance to work on yourself and look inside
Avoiding self-reflection by focusing on others.
Why you got me feeling like I'm crazy
Continuing to feel mentally disturbed in your presence.
It seems the more I talk to you the more I hate me
Conversations with you intensify my self-hatred.
You make me feel like there's no way I could escape it
Feeling trapped, unable to escape your influence.
Cause I can't let you go without you always chasing
I can't move on because you keep pursuing me.
Why you got me feeling like I'm crazy, crazy, crazy
Reiterating the feeling of craziness caused by you.
I think I get it, you don't know who you are
Understanding that you may not know your true self.
So you break others down to cover up your own scars
You harm others to hide your own emotional wounds.
What do you really want, do you even know
Questioning your true desires and self-awareness.
You hide behind everyone else and you put on a show
You use others as a shield, presenting a false facade.
Somehow I'll still love you and I'll probably never let go
Despite everything, I still hold onto my love for you.
But I can say I tried and that's more than you'll ever know
I can say I made an effort, more than you may ever comprehend.
Why you got me feeling like I'm crazy
Continuing to feel mentally disturbed in your presence.
It seems the more I talk to you the more I hate me
Conversations with you intensify my self-hatred.
You make me feel like there's no way I could escape it
Feeling trapped, unable to escape your influence.
Cause I can't let you go without you always chasing
I can't move on because you keep pursuing me.
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