Neighborino
Unspoken Desires: Neighborino's Tale of Silent Longing
Lyrics
Why is it so hard to knock on your door?
Expressing difficulty in reaching out to the neighbor through a door knock.
It's just two steps away
Highlighting the physical proximity, just two steps away.
I wouldn't know what to say
Feeling unsure about what to say when approaching the neighbor.
You wouldn't want to stay
Suggesting the neighbor might not be receptive or welcoming.
Isn't it so sad that I had to text you?
Expressing sadness at resorting to texting despite close physical proximity.
When you are so close to me
Noting the emotional distance despite being physically close.
Even when we stood side by side
Reflecting on a situation where even standing side by side feels distant.
We have never been so far apart
Emphasizing the emotional distance between the speaker and the neighbor.
And it was you who left the note
Attributing a note left to the neighbor.
And it was you who let go
Pointing out that the neighbor initiated the separation.
But you never even grabbed on
Suggesting the neighbor didn't make an effort to maintain the connection.
And it was me who read the note
The speaker acknowledging reading the note left by the neighbor.
And it was me who wouldn't let go
Indicating the speaker's reluctance to let go of the connection.
It was me who had some hope
Expressing that the speaker still holds onto hope despite the separation.
Going up the stairs I see your shadow
Observing the neighbor's presence indirectly, possibly metaphorical.
I look away so you don't have to see me
Avoiding eye contact to spare the neighbor from seeing the speaker.
But I'm just so damn tired
Expressing weariness from self-talk and the absence of communication.
Of talking to myself instead of you
Longing for communication with the neighbor instead of internal monologue.
What I'd give to truly know
Expressing a desire to truly understand the neighbor's thoughts.
What you really think of me
Reflecting on the uncertainty of the neighbor's opinion about the speaker.
But it's too late you have left my life
Realizing the neighbor has already departed from the speaker's life.
I'd kill myself to join you in the next one
An intense expression of willingness to join the neighbor, possibly metaphorical.
And it was you who left the note
Reiteration of the neighbor initiating the separation.
And it was you who let go
Reaffirming that the neighbor chose to let go.
But you never even grabbed on
Highlighting the neighbor's lack of effort in maintaining the connection.
And it was me who read the note
Acknowledging the speaker reading the note left by the neighbor.
And it was me who wouldn't let go
Expressing the speaker's resistance to letting go of the connection.
It was me who had some hope
Affirming that the speaker still holds onto hope despite the circumstances.
And it was me who didn't try
Admitting the speaker's lack of effort in trying to mend the relationship.
And it was me who knew I'd die
Confronting the inevitability of death while struggling with social interaction.
Trying to learn how to say hi
Expressing difficulty in basic social interactions like saying hi.
And it was you who didn't care
Noting the neighbor's apparent lack of concern or interest.
Weren't to be seen anywhere
Observing the neighbor's absence, even in thoughts or prayers.
Not even in my prayer
Highlighting the neighbor's complete detachment, not even in prayers.
I saw the note on your door addressed to you
Discovering a note addressed to the neighbor, possibly from another person.
He couldn't talk to you just like me
Realizing someone else faced difficulty in talking to the neighbor, similar to the speaker.
You looked so happy and that's when I knew
Noticing the neighbor's apparent happiness, adding to the speaker's distress.
That this wasn't meant to be true
Concluding that the connection with the neighbor was not destined to be.
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