Even Kill
Navigating Love's Crossroads: Logan Pilcher's Even Kill
Lyrics
I'm waiting here inside my own skin
The singer feels confined within their own self, possibly struggling with internal issues or emotions.
I'm waiting here and I don't know why
The singer is uncertain about the reason for their current state of waiting or feeling stuck.
I thought that I could heal from within
Initially believed they could find healing from their inner struggles.
But it feels like I'm just picking a fight
Despite efforts to heal, it seems like they're engaging in conflicts or struggles instead.
And I don't know which side of me is winning or losing
The singer feels torn between conflicting aspects of their personality or emotions, unsure of the dominant side.
Right now it's a dead even kill
They feel in a state of equilibrium where neither side seems to be prevailing.
Take it for granted
Expresses taking something for granted, possibly referring to aspects of life or relationships.
The life that I'm handed
Acknowledgment of the life circumstances they've been given.
I'm stuck between heaven and hell
Feeling stuck between extreme situations, symbolized by heaven and hell.
But I want you more than anybody else
The singer desires someone deeply amidst their internal turmoil.
I'm waiting here where I let you go
Reflecting on a past decision to let someone go and now waiting, possibly regretting it.
I'm waiting here and I don't know why
Similar to line 2, unsure of the reasons for the current state of waiting.
I thought that there was no way to know
Initially uncertain, now realizing that their instincts or feelings were accurate.
But now I know my instincts were right
Despite achieving what they desired, there's a sense of loss or defeat.
And I got what I wanted but it feels like I'm loosing
Feeling like they're losing despite having obtained their desires.
Right now we're a dead even kill
Describing a state of equilibrium in a relationship or situation where neither side seems to be winning.
I took you for granted
Admitting to taking someone or something for granted.
I'm sorry I did it
Apologizing for the actions that led to detrimental consequences.
I pushed us both off of the rails
Acknowledging responsibility for causing disruption or chaos in their relationship.
But I want you more than anybody else
The intense desire for someone despite the chaos or turmoil in the relationship.
'Cause you're the garden I left behind
Repeated emphasis on the importance of the person they left behind, comparing them to a precious garden.
'Cause you're the garden I, I left behind
-I chose to, I chose to, I chose to
Reiterating the decision made, possibly expressing regret or self-reflection on their choices.
And I got what I wanted but it feels like I'm loosing
Similar to line 15, a feeling of losing despite achieving their desires.
Right now I'm a dead even kill
Reflecting a balanced yet conflicted state within themselves.
I took you for granted
Repetition of apology for taking someone for granted and causing harm.
I'm sorry I did it
-I pushed us both off of the rails
Acknowledgment of pushing their relationship to a detrimental state.
And I got what I wanted but it feels like I'm loosing
Despite achieving their desires, they feel like they're losing in the current situation.
Right now I'm a dead even kill
Reiterating the sense of equilibrium and conflict within their emotions or relationship.
I took you for granted
Continued apology and acknowledgment of the harm caused.
I'm sorry I did it
-I pushed us both off of the rails
Repetition emphasizing the damage done to their relationship.
I pushed us both off of the rails
-But I want you more than anybody else
Reiterating the intense desire for the person despite all the turmoil.
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