Stream of Consciousness
Navigating Love's Maze: Lola Young's Soulful Reflections
Lyrics
I turn the lights down, throw the towel in
I lower the lights and give up, feeling emotionally numb
And feel pretty much nothing
Experiencing a lack of emotions or sensation
I think that's the kind of pain that worries me, and I
Concerned about a particular type of pain
Like to think that I'm growing up and that I'm learnin'
Expressing the desire for personal growth and learning
But I've no idea what's underneath
Uncertainty about one's true self
And the foundations I laid down are too light for my skin
Feeling that the foundations laid down are not suitable for oneself
And he said he wants to take me abroad but I can barely fly with my own wings, and
Someone expresses the desire to travel together, but the speaker feels incapable
Love really confuses me, like how much are you supposed to give?
Confusion about the extent of love and how much one should give
(That's all I had)
A pause or reflection on the previous thought
I dream in colour, hate the summer
Expressing a preference for vivid dreams and a dislike for summer
I act tougher than I really am
Pretending to be tougher than one actually is
I'm a fuck-up, told my mother
Admitting to personal failures and confiding in the mother
I don't love her when she's all that I have
Contradiction in feelings towards the mother
And I'm twenty-one but feel like I'm gettin' on
Feeling older than the age of 21
The child in me has been and gone, isn't that sad?
Reflecting on the loss of childhood and expressing sadness
I dream in colour, hate the summer
Reiteration of dreaming in color and disliking summer
Please don't tell me this is all that I am
Asking not to define the speaker solely based on present circumstances
It's all that I am
Reinforcing the plea to avoid limiting perceptions
I think deep down I quite like being held at night, you know?
Enjoying the comfort of being held at night
Someone to touch, something to believe in
Desiring physical contact and something to believe in
And there's like twenty-one reasons as to why I'm here, but like
Multiple reasons for existence but feeling a lack of meaning
Ninety-nine reasons as to why there's just no meaning (That's quite depressing)
Expressing a sense of depression about the lack of meaning
And if I make something out of myself, it'll be mad beautiful
If the speaker achieves something, it will be remarkably beautiful
Like the way he looked at me when I asked him to dance
A positive memory of someone's admiring look during a dance
This isn't a stream of consciousness
Rejecting the idea that the current expression is a stream of consciousness
This is more like a big, fat fucking "No one asked"
Dismissing the significance of the expression as unasked for
I dream in colour, hate the summer
Repetition of dreaming in color and disliking summer
I act tougher than I really am
Reiterating the act of appearing tougher than the true self
I'm a fuck-up, told my mother
Repeating the acknowledgment of personal flaws to the mother
I don't love her when she's all that I have
Reiteration of conflicting feelings towards the mother
And I'm twenty-one but feel like I'm gettin' on
Feeling older than the age of 21, repeating the sentiment
The child in me has been and gone, isn't that sad?
Repeating the reflection on the loss of childhood and expressing sadness
I dream in colour, hate the summer
Repetition of dreaming in color and disliking summer
Please don't tell me this is all that I am
Reiterating the request not to define the speaker solely based on present circumstances
It's all that I am
Emphasizing that the current circumstances are all that the speaker is
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