Lyrics
The day I get my shit together that’s the day I die
The day I achieve stability in my life is the day I cease to exist.
The day I dive so deep that I forget the time
The day I immerse myself deeply in something, losing track of time.
The time I tried so hard what was I reaching for
Reflecting on a time when significant effort was exerted, questioning the purpose.
Why reach for the sky if I can dully manage on my own
Questioning the need to aim for high aspirations when managing alone is sufficient.
But I’m not blanking seeing beams of gold and white
Despite challenges, not losing perception and witnessing moments of beauty.
I’m painting pictures, rearranging the weather
Engaged in creative activities, influencing and altering the surroundings.
I think better in the rainy light
Preferential thinking and enhanced cognition in rainy or adverse conditions.
The dark has me preoccupied
The darkness occupies the mind, possibly alluding to personal struggles.
I think better in the rainy light
Reiterating a preference for thinking clearly in rainy light.
The dark has me preoccupied
Reiteration of being preoccupied with darkness affecting thoughts.
I’m just tryna sit at the fault line
Desire to exist at the edge of instability, embracing challenges.
I’m just tryna live on the fault line
Expressing a wish to live amidst uncertainty and unpredictability.
I’m tired of being told that it’s alright
Fatigue from hearing reassurances that everything will be fine.
I’m just tryna live on the fault line
Reaffirmation of the desire to live on the edge, on the fault line.
The day I get my shit together I won’t even know
A sense of unawareness about the day of achieving stability.
The day my eyes roll back and I’m quarreling with crows
An imaginative scene where the speaker's eyes roll back, engaging with crows.
Crouching low to get a view of who chose to show
Curious about observing those who attend their own funeral.
I always wondered who’d be at my funeral
A contemplation on who would be present at the speaker's funeral.
I’m just tryna sit at the fault line
Reiteration of the desire to be at the edge of instability.
I’m just tryna live on the fault line
Continued expression of the wish to live on the fault line.
I’m tired of being told that it’s alright
Expressing weariness of hearing that everything is okay.
I’m just tryna live on the fault line
Restating the desire to live on the edge, on the fault line.
I don’t see the small things
Avoiding focus on trivial matters, possibly emphasizing the bigger picture.
I am jumping through rings
Engaged in challenging and demanding activities, symbolized by jumping through rings.
Fire is catching me thin
An intense experience, possibly referring to passion or challenges igniting the speaker.
Fire is melting me in
Intense experiences and challenges are shaping and transforming the speaker.
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