I've Forgotten How To Smile
Lost in Heartbreak: Rediscovering Joy in Louise Parker's Melancholy
Lyrics
I’m awake at 5am, I just stare at my ceiling and try to make sense of it all.
The singer is awake early, pondering life's complexities while staring at the ceiling.
Trying to find some meaning, ‘cause my heart’s still beating, it only hurts when I’m breathing.
Seeking meaning in life; despite a beating heart, emotional pain surfaces only during breaths.
Every word that I write don’t feel right,
The lyrics written don't feel emotionally accurate.
Where did we go so wrong?
Questioning where the relationship went wrong.
It’s you, the first thing that’s on my mind,
The person is the singer's predominant thought.
’Til I fall asleep at night, no matter how I've tried I can’t get you off my mind.
The thoughts persist till sleep, the singer can't stop thinking about the person.
‘Cause you left with no reason why,
The person left without explanation.
Said you loved me but maybe you lied, it’s breaking me up inside.
The person's declaration of love might have been insincere, causing internal pain.
I’ve forgotten how to smile.
The singer feels incapable of happiness.
Then the nights turn in to days, nothing tastes the same, all my friends think I’m going insane.
Nights blur into days; everything feels dull after the departure, leading to concern among friends.
‘Cause in trying to find some meaning I just keep repeating our last day and all the things you’d say to me.
The singer replays memories and conversations, seeking understanding.
Every word you said didn’t feel real,
The person's words felt unreal or insincere.
Am I dumb or was I blind?
The singer questions their own perception or attentiveness.
It’s you, the first thing that’s on my mind,
The person remains the predominant thought despite efforts to move on.
’Til I fall asleep at night, no matter how I try I can’t get you off my mind.
Even after trying, the person's thoughts persist.
‘Cause you left with no reason why,
The person's departure lacked a clear reason.
Said you loved me but maybe you lied and it’s breaking me up inside.
Doubts arise about the sincerity of the person's love, causing inner turmoil.
I’ve forgotten how to smile.
The singer feels unable to express happiness.
They say maybe it’s for the best,
Others suggest the breakup might be beneficial for the singer's well-being.
‘Cause if he really loved me he would hate to see me this way.
If the person truly cared, they wouldn't want the singer to suffer.
And if he really loved me he would never have let me drive my car whilst I'm running on empty.
If the person truly cared, they wouldn't have allowed the singer to endanger themselves while emotionally distraught.
But it’s still you, the first thing that’s on my mind,
Despite advice, thoughts of the person persist.
’Til I fall asleep at night, I've tried.
Even after various attempts, the thoughts of the person endure.
‘Cause you left with no reason why,
The person's departure lacked a clear explanation.
Said you loved me but maybe you lied.
The sincerity of the person's love is questioned, causing emotional turmoil.
I’ve forgotten how to smile.
The singer feels unable to express happiness.
I’ve forgotten how to smile.
The singer reiterates their inability to smile.
I’ve forgotten how...
The singer emphasizes their ongoing struggle with happiness.
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