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Navigating Life's Labyrinth: Lowswimmer's Reflection on Turning 29
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I won't get back in the saddle
Expressing reluctance to return to a situation or activity.
I can't switch off the empathy channel
Unable to stop feeling and understanding others' emotions.
The static spoke to my lack of backbone
Feeling like a lack of courage or determination is being noticed by others.
So go slowly i wouldn't be able to say it
Requesting someone to act slowly because the speaker might struggle to express themselves.
It left me embarrassed
Feeling ashamed or self-conscious due to a previous situation or action.
I won't sit back at the table, I won't
Refusing to participate or engage in a certain discussion or activity.
And somehow
Transition to a different thought or topic.
It's gotta be everything
Desire for completeness or entirety in life.
Let me envision it - given that generally
Imagining or visualizing something with the understanding that it's generally challenging.
I wasn't good at this i have to plan it out
Recognizing difficulty in handling a situation and the need to plan ahead.
I'll grow up eventually
Acknowledging the need for personal growth or maturity over time.
Wish I hadn't mentioned it
Expressing regret about mentioning something.
I hadn't regretted it
Realizing regret for something only after someone else brings it up.
Until you said it had been
Feeling burdened by past mistakes or troubles.
Trouble to carry me around
Expressing inability to progress or move forward.
I can't get back on the ladder
Not being able to regain a higher position or status.
But I'd live herе - Heaven, Seattlе -
Desire to live in an ideal place like Heaven, specifically mentioning Seattle.
If only! Heaven's a gamble i don't want now
Realization that an idealized place like Heaven is uncertain and not desired presently.
And I won't sleep, but if I was able
Expressing difficulty in sleeping but contemplating tracing things back to their origin.
I'd trace it back to the cradle
Recognizing that the past held more confidence or assurance.
It held in it's confidence better somehow
Empty line, no specific meaning attributed.
Hell, I won't
Strongly refusing or denying something.
I'll always be fledgling always in anything
Feeling inexperienced or immature in various aspects of life.
I set the precedent it was belittling
Having set a precedent that led to feeling underestimated or diminished.
Not even a little bit of pride
Complete absence of pride or satisfaction.
Somewhere in the middle I
Lost something significant while in New Orleans, possibly a metaphorical reference.
Lost it in New Orleans got ‘em to post to me
Getting a response without having to say anything.
Without saying anything
Granting someone else the responsibility to handle a situation.
I'll let you handle it, alright?
Asking for confirmation or approval to handle something.
It looks like you've got
Implying that someone else seems capable of managing the situation.
It all covered anyway, right?
Assuming the other person has everything under control.
You're better than me at it, I
Admitting inadequacy or inferiority compared to someone else.
Would just mess it up, it's fine
Anticipating failure or making mistakes if taking charge.
I somehow, regrettably
Regretfully passing up opportunities or experiences.
Pass up on everything I find
Feeling inadequate or lacking sufficient life experiences at nearly 29 years old.
Like, I haven't lived enough to be nearly 29
Empty line, no specific meaning attributed.
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