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I was never really blessed with being optimistic
I have not been naturally inclined to be optimistic.
Feeling peace is probably the opposite of this shit
Finding peace is likely the opposite of my current situation.
And this is why I tend to resonate with all the misfits
I relate to those who don't conform or fit in with societal norms.
Seeking validation always need someone to give it
I constantly seek validation, relying on others to provide it.
Make a hundred shots focus on the ones I'm missing
I focus on my failures despite making numerous attempts.
Hate being normal, but too scared to be a little different
I dislike being ordinary but fear standing out.
If they remember who I was that would be terrific
Being remembered positively would be fantastic.
Or I could lose it all and let 'em think that I'm sadistic
Alternatively, I might lose everything and let people think I'm sadistic.
That's the power of media watch how quick they twist it
The media has the power to quickly twist and manipulate information.
One day they love you and the next they switching up positions
People change their opinions and positions on you rapidly.
No recognition they'll cancel you for their own advantage
No recognition, and people will cancel you for their own benefit.
Implanted compliments are muddied out with underhanded confidential conversations
Compliments are tainted with underhanded conversations.
But that's to be expected when you're raised in broken nations
Expect such dynamics when raised in broken nations.
Hard to tell the truth when they reflect it back with hatred
It's challenging to speak the truth when faced with hatred.
Not playing victim or escaping
Not playing the victim but seeking resolution within the matrix.
I'm just seeking resolution through the matrix
Seeking resolution and understanding within the complexities of life.
I'm just seeking resolution through the matrix
Reiteration of the pursuit of resolution through the matrix.
Though I'm high up I admit that I am not convinced
Despite my success, I'm not entirely convinced of being a better person.
I'm a better person or reflection after writing this
Reflecting and improving through the act of writing.
Catching lighting in a bottle when I try to vent
Expressing emotions and thoughts when attempting to vent.
Peeling back the layers of myself to see what I convict
Examining and understanding my own flaws and guilt.
Climbing up the ladder really now it's making sense
As I climb the ladder of success, things start making sense.
Why I push away I'm never falling in with different clicks
I avoid getting involved with different social groups.
Game is in my mind it's a perspective I know this is it
The game is a mental challenge, and I recognize it as such.
I could quit, but I'd rather stay to show you it's a myth
Despite challenges, I choose to persist and debunk myths.
Happiness ain't coming from money or making many hits
True happiness doesn't come from wealth or popularity.
But the thoughts we give attention and the way we live
Our thoughts and lifestyle choices influence our well-being.
Yeah I'm scared as fuck to think where I go after this
I fear the unknown path after this phase of my life.
And even more afraid of losing all the people I would miss
I'm afraid of losing the people I care about.
Just a human so there's only so much I can take
Being human, there's a limit to what I can endure.
Impacted by the trauma coming out in cyberspace
The impact of trauma is evident in the online world.
A never-ending void tempting one that I could chase
An endless void tempts me, and I contemplate chasing it.
Matrix is the only place to find the peace of God and grace
The matrix is the only place to find peace, God, and grace.
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