Feedback Hounds
Echoes of Solitude: Lucy Kruger's Poetic Reflections
Lyrics
I want to be seen
I desire acknowledgment or recognition.
But I don't want to show
I want attention without revealing my true self.
I'm not willing to go there
I'm unwilling to explore certain aspects or emotions.
Not willing to go
I'm resistant to go down a particular path.
I preach that it's good to be alone
I advocate for solitude, but I may not fully understand it.
But what do I know
Expressing uncertainty about one's own knowledge.
I'm lonely
Feeling isolated or disconnected.
But I've been calling it learning
Reframing loneliness as a form of learning.
And it's only
Loneliness is the silent struggle within.
That I'm quietly burning
Internal turmoil or emotional conflict.
So bring me friends to kiss my mouth
Desiring companionship to distract from inner struggles.
Skin to soothe the feedback hounds
Seeking physical comfort to silence inner demons.
That echo through this human house
Inner conflicts are overwhelming and deafening.
Deafeningly loud
Struggling with personal issues privately.
And I too proud to let them out
Pride prevents opening up about internal struggles.
To play with the kids in town
Avoiding involvement with others in the community.
I wanna sing to woo you
Expressing a desire to captivate or charm someone.
I wanna sing really fucking well to fool you
Wanting to sing exceptionally well to deceive others.
Into thinking I'm free
Desiring to appear liberated and emotionally fulfilled.
That I've both very crisp and very love soaked sheets
Confessing to being deceitful and unfaithful.
I'm a cheat
Acknowledging dishonesty or betrayal.
I'm a child
Recognizing one's own immaturity or innocence.
I'm a charlatan
Admitting to being a fraud or imposter.
I'm shy and I'm shit and I'm caving in
Feeling reserved, inadequate, and collapsing emotionally.
And I don't want you here to see this how this ends
Not wanting someone to witness a personal breakdown.
I'm a coward
Acknowledging a lack of courage.
I vandalised a map
Symbolic act of destroying a path and hiding it in art.
And I buried it in song
Expressing uncertainty about the morality of an action.
And I don't know if it was right
Unsure if the artistic act was right or wrong.
Or very very wrong
Uncertain of the consequences of participating.
And I don't know what happens
Unsure of the outcome if others follow along.
If you play along
Expressing hesitancy about involving others.
And I don't want to lose you
Fear of losing someone but accepting the inevitable.
But I'm not gonna win
Recognizing the impossibility of winning in certain situations.
Cause I can't seem to grasp
Failure to understand that life is not a competition.
That it's not a competition
Acknowledging a lack of comprehension about life's nature.
I'm lonely
Reiterating loneliness as a form of education.
But I've been calling it learning
Embracing loneliness as a learning process.
And it's only
Quietly experiencing internal conflict or turmoil.
That I'm quietly burning
Internal struggles manifesting as a silent burning.
So bring me friends to kiss my mouth
Seeking external distractions to cope with inner turmoil.
Skin to soothe the feedback hounds
Desiring physical touch to silence inner conflicts.
That echo through this human house
Inner struggles are overwhelming and deafening.
Deafeningly loud
Pride prevents opening up about internal struggles.
And I too proud to let them out
Avoiding involvement with others in the community.
To play with the kids in town
Resisting engagement with others in the community.
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