Lyrics
Waiting up, your face is red
Expressing observation of someone's emotional state (face is red).
I'm drunk again and home at way past ten
Admitting to being intoxicated and returning home late.
Your number's on the wall, you said
Referring to a contact method (number on the wall) with a hint of detachment.
That they meant something different in my head
Realizing a misunderstanding or misinterpretation about the significance of actions.
And I would shout, 'cause I believed
Recalling past conviction in defending oneself (shouting) based on a belief.
That you were way too hard on me
Believing that the person was too critical or harsh.
You would never give permission
Implies denial or lack of approval, possibly related to personal choices.
I was sitting in the kitchen, crying
Describing a vulnerable moment (crying in the kitchen) suggesting emotional struggle.
Papa, you would have been different
Mentioning an alternative scenario if a father figure had been present or involved.
But you were doing more than nine to five
Highlighting a contrast in lifestyles, suggesting a difficult work situation for the father.
You get older and it hits ya
Reflecting on the impact of aging and gaining perspective.
17, I was a bitch to ya
Expressing regret for past behavior at the age of 17.
But now I see the bigger picture
Acknowledging a broader understanding of life or a situation.
Packed a bag late one night
Describing a departure, potentially from a difficult situation.
Walked out tall, but water in my eyes, ooh
Walking away with a facade of strength but with internal emotional turmoil.
Called a cab and took a ride
Using transportation as a means to gain distance but returning humbled.
But came back smaller, swallowing my pride, ooh
Coming back with a reduced sense of pride or ego.
I would shout 'cause I believed
Recalling the belief in someone being a vital part of oneself.
That you were a missing part of me
Suggesting a sense of incompleteness or missing connection.
You would never give permission
Reiterating a theme of denial or lack of approval from a parental figure.
I was sitting in the kitchen, crying
Revisiting a vulnerable moment of crying in the kitchen.
Papa, you would have been different
Speculating on a hypothetical different outcome with a present father figure.
But you were doing more than nine to five
Highlighting the demanding nature of the father's job.
You get older and it hits ya
Reiterating the theme of gaining insight with age.
17, I was a bitch to ya
Expressing regret for past behavior at the age of 17.
But now I see the bigger picture
Reiterating a current understanding of a larger perspective.
I thought life was made for me
Admitting to a previous misconception about life being tailored to oneself.
A hundred things I couldn't see
Listing numerous things that were not previously understood.
Thought I was cool and you were mean
Perceiving a past self as cool and a parental figure as mean, acknowledging naivety.
But I was so naive
Recognizing one's own lack of understanding in the past.
'Cause you would never give permission
Repeating the theme of denial or lack of approval, possibly emphasizing it.
I was sitting in the kitchen, crying
Revisiting a vulnerable moment of crying in the kitchen.
Papa would have been so different
Imagining a different scenario with a more involved or present father.
You were doing more than nine to five
Highlighting the demanding nature of the father's job.
You would never give permission
Repeating the theme of denial or lack of approval.
I was sitting in the kitchen, crying
Revisiting a vulnerable moment of crying in the kitchen.
Papa, you would have been different
Speculating on a hypothetical different outcome with a present father figure.
But you were doing more than nine to five
Highlighting the demanding nature of the father's job.
You get older and it hits ya
Reiterating the theme of gaining insight with age.
17, I was a bitch to ya
Expressing regret for past behavior at the age of 17.
But now I see the bigger picture
Affirming the current understanding of a larger perspective.
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