Lyrics
I watch reality TV
I use reality TV as a distraction.
To prevent me from crying
To avoid crying on emotionally challenging days.
On the days that I'm feeling
Expressing emotions that arise within me.
Something stirring inside me
Acknowledging inner turmoil or emotions.
I'd rather be numb
Prefer to feel emotionally detached or numb.
I stare at my phone
Engaging with my phone, perhaps as a distraction.
Scrolling past messages read
Reviewing messages, often not responding to them.
But they're seldom replied to
Messages are rarely answered, indicating detachment.
No, they don't charge me extra
No additional cost for not responding.
I just don't feel obliged
Not obligated to express my feelings in messages.
To type what I'm feeling
Choosing not to articulate my emotions.
When my mind is still reeling
Experiencing a turbulent mind.
I'm avoiding the issue
Avoiding addressing a particular issue.
But I promise I miss you
Acknowledging a missed connection with someone.
I'm guilty of pleasures that I find
Engaging in guilty pleasures.
You won't have to read between the lines if I
Implying transparency, no hidden meanings.
Quit the thinking
Choosing to stop overthinking.
Pour another drink
Using alcohol to cope or escape.
I'm feeling numb but pressured
Feeling both emotionally numb and pressured.
By my guilty pleasures
Pressure from indulging in guilty pleasures.
Holy smokes
An expression of surprise or realization.
I wanna buy a pack of cigarettes
Expressing a desire to buy cigarettes.
But I don't smoke
Clarifying a lack of smoking habit.
And so I'll have to find it secondhand
Seeking secondhand cigarettes due to non-smoking.
I want it crowded around me
Wanting a crowded environment.
Want my throat to be burning
Desiring a physically intense experience.
And my mouth will be open
Expressing a desire for openness without communication.
But you won't hear a word from me
Lack of verbal expression despite physical experience.
'Cause I'm avoiding the issue
Avoiding addressing a specific issue, reiterating.
But I promise I miss you
Repeating the admission of missing someone.
I'm guilty of pleasures that I find
Engaging in guilty pleasures, reiterated.
You won't have to read between the lines if I
Reiterating transparency in communication.
Quit the thinking
Reaffirming the decision to stop overthinking.
Pour another drink
Continuing to use alcohol as a coping mechanism.
I'm feeling numb but pressured
Experiencing emotional numbness under pressure.
By my guilty pleasures
Pressure stemming from guilty pleasures.
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