Little by Little
Navigating Life's Distractions: Little by Little
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When I was just a teenager learning about God
Reflecting on adolescence and exploring spirituality.
All the angels and the Savior, all the things that I am not
Acknowledging personal shortcomings compared to religious ideals.
My teacher was so handsome as he babbled about mass
Recalling a charismatic teacher discussing religious concepts.
He was asking me a question and I was staring at his smile
Being distracted by the teacher's attractive qualities.
And I act as though I've heard him but I know he sees right through
Pretending to listen but feeling exposed and seen through.
He says, "How many disciples were there?"
Teacher asks about disciples, revealing a lack of attention.
I say, "Like, two?"
Responding with a flippant answer, showing disinterest.
He says, "Girl you better listen or it's off to Hell with you"
Teacher warns about consequences for not paying attention.
And I nod my head
Nodding in agreement but getting distracted again.
As little by little I'm distracted again
Gradual distraction from religious teachings.
Little by little I'm distracted
Continued distraction, possibly from spiritual matters.
So I found myself a fellow and I built a home in him
Finding a partner and creating a home together.
With a chimney and a door where I could let my worries in
Having a space to share worries but realizing love's challenges.
But love is just as cruel and as fickle as the wind
Love's unpredictability compared to the whims of the wind.
I was living in a dream while he was riding on a whim
Living in a dream while partner acts on impulses.
And I act as though it's painless but I think it's clear to see
Pretending emotional pain is bearable, despite clear signs.
My heart is on the pavement and my pants around my knees
Feeling exposed and vulnerable in the relationship.
He says, "Nothing really matters, everything must run its course"
Partner dismissing the significance of their issues.
And I say, "Okay"
Accepting the situation reluctantly.
As little by little he is driftin' away
Gradual emotional distance in the relationship.
Little by little he is driftin
Continued emotional drift in the relationship.
I am driving in the sunlight down on Jasper Avenue
Driving and reflecting on life, specifically on Jasper Avenue.
The stoplights are all green & red, but everything looks blue
Perceiving life through a melancholic lens despite external signals.
And I think about that man that I once loved and I once knew
Thoughts about a past love and wondering about their current state.
And wonder where he's gotten to
Expressing curiosity about the whereabouts of the former lover.
There's a plastic bag above me, it is dancin' in the air
Observing mundane details like a dancing plastic bag and an old woman.
An old woman on the sidewalk, she's got cotton candy hair
Noticing the eccentricity of life around, perhaps contrasting with personal struggles.
And I've got so much left to see before I get it right
Acknowledging the journey ahead and the need for personal growth.
But little by little I am trying to try
Attempting gradual self-improvement and positive change.
Little by little I am trying
Continued effort to improve oneself little by little.
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