Old Shoes
Emotional Struggles: Finding Healing in 'Old Shoes' by Maggie Cubillos
Lyrics
Am I the only one who's scared to fall asleep at night?
Expressing fear of falling asleep, possibly due to unsettling thoughts.
Let my subconscious confirm thoughts I try to hide
Desiring confirmation from the subconscious about concealed thoughts.
Told myself it's the monster under my bed every time
Using the idea of a monster under the bed as a metaphor for personal fears.
But I think I'm the monster that just creeps up inside
Acknowledging a realization that the inner struggles are self-generated.
Someone let me out the trap door
Expressing a desire to escape from personal challenges.
Escape from my own life long world war
Describing life as a prolonged internal conflict.
Cuz I've waited far too long for this doomsday
Waiting for a significant, perhaps negative event, comparing it to a doomsday.
Now I'm just
Transitioning to a state of being.
I'm trying my best to fight this funny feeling
Struggling against an indescribable emotion or situation.
Can't just suppress and suppress all the healing it won't go away
Acknowledging the ineffectiveness of suppressing emotions for healing.
Grasping tight but uneasy, captive to fine lines we couldn't entertain
Feeling constrained by delicate boundaries that are difficult to navigate.
Wish it wasn't this easy to forgive and forget sometimes
Expressing a wish for forgiveness and forgetting to be more challenging.
Losing my sense of self in a pool of Barbie Malibu's
Losing a sense of self in a superficial or artificial environment.
Didn't think I'd go this far, always the same excuse
Regretting actions that were previously justified with similar excuses.
Told myself I'd be fine, it just takes time, always unamused
Telling oneself that time will heal, yet remaining unamused or unchanged.
If growth wasn't painful I'd still wear my old shoes
Reflecting on the pain of growth and the reluctance to let go of the past.
I'm trying my best to fight this funny feeling
Reiterating the struggle against an ambiguous emotional state.
Can't just suppress and suppress all the healing it won't go away
Highlighting the futility of suppressing emotions for lasting healing.
Grasping tight but uneasy, captive to fine lines we couldn't entertain
Feeling trapped by delicate and challenging situations.
Wish it wasn't this easy to forgive and forget sometimes
Expressing a desire for forgiveness and forgetfulness to be more difficult.
Now I'm just
Transitioning back to a state of being.
I'm trying my best to fight this funny feeling
Continuing the struggle against an indescribable emotion or situation.
Can't just suppress and suppress all the healing it won't go away
Emphasizing the ineffectiveness of suppressing emotions for healing.
Grasping tight but uneasy, captive to fine lines we couldn't entertain
Reiterating the feeling of being trapped by delicate boundaries.
Wish it wasn't this easy to forgive and forget sometimes
Expressing a wish for forgiveness and forgetfulness to be more challenging.
(Tired of fighting the feeling I'm just tryna start all the healing)
Expressing fatigue and a desire to start the process of healing.
Forget sometimes
Repeating the idea of forgetting as a challenging process.
(Tired of fighting the feeling I'm just tryna start all the healing)
Reiterating the fatigue and the intent to start the healing process.
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