Rx
Rx Redemption: Battling Demons, Chasing Liberty
Lyrics
I have my flaws
I acknowledge my imperfections
Self-control I am lacking
I struggle with maintaining self-discipline
It's not my fault
I'm not entirely to blame
That I
Referencing a recurring pattern or cycle
Keep falling off this wagon
I repeatedly fall off track
You make me feel
Your influence makes me feel monstrous
Like I'm some kind of monster
Expressing regret for making a person a sponsor
Regret the day
Regretting the decision that led to sponsorship
That I
Reflecting on the day the sponsorship was initiated
Made you my sponsor
Regret for making someone a sponsor
So call me up
Request to be called and criticized for lack of effort
Tell me I don't try enough
Desire to be informed about insufficient effort
Tired of my games
Expressing fatigue with personal behavior
I only have myself to blame
Taking responsibility for one's actions
This one feels like kissing in the rain
A romantic moment, possibly regretful
Something for you to gain
Offering something for someone else's benefit
Just a little bottled fame
Referring to a small amount of fleeting fame
You could take it too we'll be the same
Suggesting shared experiences
This one feels like I'm ready to kill
Expressing a feeling of readiness to harm
Come on take another pill
Encouraging the consumption of another pill
You know your inner child will
Anticipating the impact on the inner child
One day I'll get my fix for now I'll get my fill
Temporary satisfaction until a permanent solution is found
What have I done
Reflecting on the consequences of personal actions
To my mind my body
Feeling pursued, possibly by consequences
I'm on the run
Being on the run metaphorically
And yet somehow oddly
Acknowledging the oddity of the situation
I'd take another pill
Expressing intention to take another pill
In fact I think I will
Confirming the decision to take another pill
I have but one more fill
Having one more opportunity for satisfaction
How many does it take to kill?
Raising a question about the lethal dosage
I promised you with my fingers crossed
Promise made with a lack of sincerity
There'd be liberty someday
Hope for freedom in the future
But I'm the Tempest-Tossed
Describing oneself as turbulent and uncertain
So if anybody asks I was never lost
Denying being lost when asked
This one feels like I'm at my wit's end
Feeling overwhelmed and exhausted
Why do I bother to pretend?
Questioning the purpose of pretending
There's just too much I can't defend
Admitting vulnerability and lack of defense
So say what you will now
Openness to judgment, seeking companionship
I just need a friend
Expressing the need for a friend
So pop another one
Encouraging the consumption of another pill for fun
Just have some harmless fun
Acknowledging the innocence of the act
But I'd like to take them all
Expressing a desire to take all available pills
I've got a nurse on call
Having medical assistance available
So call me up
Requesting a call to discuss disconnection
Tell me that we're out of touch
Hoping for freedom from emotional distance
Maybe you'll set me free
Asking not to be judged negatively
And not think less of me
Concern about others' opinions
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