Leaky Breaks
Evolving Pain: Unraveling Relationships
Lyrics
Leaky holes and fire escapes will set the evening for tone
Setting the scene with imperfections and potential dangers, establishing a certain mood for the evening.
You and your holy halo started burning eventually just froze
Your previously revered and pure image began to deteriorate and became frozen, halted in its purity.
Sewn into the carpet just trying to thaw out whatever I know
Feeling stuck or ingrained in a situation, attempting to resolve or defrost what's familiar.
The thermostat it won't go higher not that you or I know
Despite efforts, the situation won't improve or get better, beyond control or understanding.
And I was drinking heavily
Consuming alcohol excessively.
I burst into your bedroom belligerently
Entered a room aggressively, lacking control or restraint.
Asked her if she's done a thing like stepping out and making a scene
Questioning someone about potential misbehavior or causing a scene outside the relationship.
So foolishly I was apathetic so I blamed your family and Never mended it
Insensitive and apathetic behavior led to blaming others, refusing to mend the situation.
Shitty brakes and balding tires we're out around on the road
Referring to unreliable and failing elements (brakes and tires) while being out on the road.
You and my little sister, flashy frequent scariest snow
Implying a problematic or uncomfortable situation involving the narrator's partner and their sister, possibly dangerous.
And we return just fine
Despite the turmoil, the return from the situation was uneventful.
I started to crack your analytical code
Attempting to decipher and understand the partner's thought process or behavior.
By the time you're convinced, I know
The narrator understands the partner's conviction or mindset by the time the partner becomes convinced.
When I was drinking heavily
Continuing to drink heavily, possibly to cope with stress or emotional turmoil.
I burst into your bedroom confusingly
Entered the partner's room in a confused or disoriented manner.
Yelled about a bunch of things
Expressing frustration or anger about unspoken issues or concerns.
that if you looked you'd never see for our eternities
Mentioning hidden problems or aspects within the relationship that are not apparent on the surface.
And I blamed you for not being
Blaming the partner for not meeting certain expectations or being true to themselves.
someone you could not be someone you'll never be
Expressing disappointment in the partner's inability to become someone they are not capable of being.
Now I see everything and everyone you see
Gaining a comprehensive understanding of the partner's perspective and experiences.
Killing time alone inside a stripped and nakedest home
Feeling emotionally exposed and vulnerable, stripped of defenses or protection.
Couldn't catch my brain up with the sights and fear that I saw
Unable to comprehend or process intense emotions or experiences, feeling overwhelmed.
Fell into the doorway hoping you had left the guitars
Hoping for a familiar or comforting presence (guitars) but finding disappointment.
It's way too late for calling anyways I guess I'll doze off
Realizing it's too late to reach out or reconcile, resigning oneself to sleep despite unresolved issues.
It's way too late for calling anyways I guess I'll doze off
-It's way too late for calling anyways I guess I'll doze off
-It's way too late for calling anyways I guess I'll doze off
-It's way too late for calling anyways I guess I'll doze off
-I've been drinking carefully
Drinking cautiously or with care, trying to be more mindful of actions and consequences.
I creep into our bedroom and watch you sleep
Quietly observing the partner while they sleep, contemplating their thoughts and actions.
My mind it wanders onto things that if I try I can't explain
Thoughts drift to incomprehensible or inexplicable things, unable to articulate them.
As if there's something worse
Suggesting the existence of something even more distressing or troubling.
As if there's something worse,
Reinforcing the notion of something deeply troubling or regretful.
to have weaned away your worth,
Reflecting on devaluing the partner's worth due to the narrator's own irrationality or mistakes.
when I was so absurd
Acknowledging past irrational behavior and questioning if there's something worse than that.
Well is there something worse?
Posing a rhetorical question about whether there's something worse than their absurd actions.
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