.5x the man
Eternal Struggle: Unveiling the Heartache in MARA WANNA's .5x the man
Lyrics
I know that it's hard sometimes to live in pain to keep a smile
I acknowledge the difficulty of living with pain while trying to maintain a positive facade.
So I don't do that anymore, this gets too hard I can't ignore
I've stopped pretending because the challenges have become too overwhelming to ignore.
But you, it's a luxury to step out when you want and that you do
You have the luxury to step out at your convenience, and you exercise that freedom.
I'm the epicenter, I'm the drama, erase me you want to
I am the center of attention, the source of drama; you want to erase me from your life.
Oh, I heard you close the door, I heard it once, oh baby I heard it before
I've heard you close the door, indicating a past rejection or separation that I've experienced before.
You run, you hide, you watch me like I'm a disease
You avoid me as if I'm a disease, observing me with a sense of judgment.
Oh I'm wearing down and you're watching me
I am deteriorating, and you are witnessing my decline.
I know how the months go on yet time stands still, and he's still gone
Time seems to stand still as the months pass, and the person I care about is still absent.
Oh and I know how you love to fix and I'm still broken, and you just quit
You have a tendency to try to fix things, but I remain broken, and you eventually give up.
And oh, I'd by lying if I said that you were just the only one
If I said you were the only one, I would be lying; there have been others.
I'm repetitive, I'm broken, and I watch them as they run, they run and
I am stuck in a repetitive and broken state, watching others run away from me.
Oh, I heard you close the door, I take the blame for expecting that you'd give me more
I heard you close the door again, and I take the blame for expecting more from you.
The days they pass, forever lasts, don't wait for me
Time passes, and the days seem endless; don't wait for me as I struggle to move forward.
You know I'm half of the man that I used to be
I acknowledge that I am only half the person I used to be.
Oh I can't get on, get on, get over like you wanted (get on, get on, get over like you wanted)
I can't move on as easily as you wanted or expected.
Oh I know, I know, I know that you are sorry (I know, I know, I know that you are sorry)
I am aware that you are sorry for the situation.
I know, I know, I know that you are sorry
Reiteration of the awareness of the other person's remorse.
I guess I learned this lesson early, oh I guess I learned this lesson, oh
Early realization of the lesson learned from the experience.
Oh I heard you close the door, and I know that I'm not the same girl anymore
Again, the closing of a door signifies a change, and I recognize that I am no longer the same person.
Eternal grief, what a relief that you released me
The release from eternal grief is seen as a relief.
You know I'm half of the man that I used to be
Reiteration that I am now only half the person I used to be.
You know I'm half of the man
Confirmation that I am now only half of the man I used to be, possibly emphasizing a loss of identity.
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