just in case
Echoes of Unspoken Longing
Lyrics
I don't know
I am uncertain
If you check up on me anymore
Uncertain if you still check up on me
Or if you still listen
Uncertain if you still listen to our favorite songs
To all of our favourite songs
Uncertain if you listen to songs written about you
Or the ones i wrote about you
Uncertain if you find my songs annoying
Or do you get annoyed?
Questioning if you get annoyed
Knowing that even now
Acknowledging that even now, you occupy a significant part of my love
You still take up
You still have a presence in my life
So much of my love
Reflecting on the lingering impact of our past love
But if you don't, I'll tell you
If you don't know, I'll inform you
That I've grown a little bit tougher
I've become a bit tougher
But a little too numb
But also somewhat emotionally numb
And I've been going out
I've been socializing and going out
And i flirt but
I flirt, but
I'm always so scared
I'm afraid of getting too intoxicated
Of getting drunk
Fearful of calling you while under the influence
Cause i don't wanna call you
Expressing a desire not to call you
Though im dying to
Despite a strong urge to do so
So i write little letters
Resorting to writing letters that will never reach you
Though they'll never get to you
Letters as a form of expression
But if you ever hear this
If you ever hear this, a key is left for you
I left a key for you
Leaving a symbolic key for you
I know that you don't miss me
Acknowledging the assumption that you don't miss me
But just in case you do
However, just in case you do miss me
Just in case you do
Reiterating the possibility of being missed
And I don't know if your hearts
Uncertain about the status of your heart
Holding someone
Wondering if your heart belongs to someone else
And if you sing to them
If you sing to them, hoping there's a song for me
I hope you sealed one song for me
Desire for a special place in your heart
Well, it's kind of pathetic
Admitting to the vulnerability of such thoughts
I find myself praying
Finding oneself praying for your inquiry
You ask about me
Hoping you ask about me
And i tell you that
If asked, claiming improvement in saying no
I've gotten better at saying no
Liking oneself more despite the struggles
And I quite like myself more
Using distractions to cope with emotions
But I use distractions like never before
Desire to hear your voice despite hesitations
Cause I wanna hear your voice
Not wanting to call you, despite the longing
But I know that
Understanding the complexity of emotions
I don't wanna call you
Avoiding the act of calling you
Though i almost do
Even though the temptation is strong
I still write little letters
Continuing to write letters, all addressed to you
And I write them all to you
Letters as a form of emotional outlet
If one day you hear me
If one day you hear me, the door is open for you
The doors open for you
Symbolic gesture of keeping a door open for reconciliation
I know that you don't miss me
Assumption that you don't miss me
But just in case you do
Reiterating the possibility of being missed
Just in case you
Repeating the sentiment of being missed
Just in case you miss me
Emphasizing the potential longing for the connection
Just in case you do
Reiterating
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