Betterment
Journey of Self-Discovery: Martian Shaman's 'Betterment' Unveiled
Lyrics
I just want to cry
I desire to express my emotions through tears.
Like a child so alone
Similar to a lonely child, I feel isolated.
I wanna lose my mind
I wish to lose control of my thoughts and emotions.
And this fear to let go
There is a fear preventing me from letting go.
I want to break the husk
I want to shatter the protective shell around my adolescent dreams.
Of my teenage dreams
Discovering the essence of everything that surrounds me is my goal.
I want to find the heart
I aim to understand the core meaning of life.
Of what all this means
Revealing the truth behind existence is my aspiration.
I want to let out blood
I want to release the stagnant and harmful aspects of myself.
The bits that have gone gangrene
Removing the parts of me that have turned detrimental.
I want to do the drugs
Exploring forbidden experiences, possibly related to substance use.
That they keep away from us
Alluding to the restriction or control imposed on certain substances.
The unpeddeled amount of
Referring to an unspecified quantity of harmless psychedelics.
Benign psychodelics
Expressing a desire to experience altered states of consciousness.
I just want to fry
A desire to undergo a transformative or intense experience.
I just want to know
An urge to seek knowledge and understanding.
I want to be awake
Wishing to be fully conscious and aware.
And I wanna see the pain
Wanting to witness and comprehend pain in all its forms.
In every each other way it seems
Reflecting on the pain that exists in various aspects of life.
Even if it is coming
Accepting pain as an integral part of existence.
In and out of me
Acknowledging the cyclical nature of pain within and around oneself.
Because there has to be a question
Contemplating the importance of questioning and uncertainty.
At least I know that I'm full of them
Acknowledging a self-awareness of having numerous questions.
Because I'm looking all around at my people here
Observing the struggles of people around, possibly in a communal context.
And I see everyone hurting themselves and each other
Noticing the self-destructive behaviors prevalent in society.
Cannibalism in place of nurturism
Metaphorically describing harmful behaviors as cannibalistic.
Mindset on total self destruction
Describing a mindset geared towards complete self-destruction.
There has to be more than this
Expressing a yearning for a deeper, more meaningful existence.
More than this nihilistic nightmare sequence
Questioning the emptiness and despair of a nihilistic perspective.
This jaded take on what living is
Criticizing a jaded view of life and its meaning.
And this endless pain and bullshit reoccurring
Reflecting on the repetition of pain and negativity in life.
I never feel safe being happy
Expressing a difficulty in feeling secure or content when happy.
Or is that it
Pondering whether insecurity is the purpose of existence.
Is that the point of all of this
Questioning if the struggles and uncertainties are the essence of life.
Is there more
Seeking more meaning and purpose beyond the apparent struggles.
Can I find more
Expressing a desire to discover a deeper meaning in life.
The answer terrifies me
Feeling frightened by the potential answers or revelations.
It fucking terrifies me to the core
Expressing intense fear or anxiety at the core of one's being.
I just want to fry
Reiterating a desire for a mind-altering experience.
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