Glowing
Fading Glow: Navigating the Bittersweet Journey of Lost Connections
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Your grandmother has been waving at me on Facebook
Your grandmother has been reaching out to me on Facebook.
Every other week
This interaction happens every two weeks.
Since we parted
This frequency has been ongoing since our separation.
I have not replied yet
I haven't responded to her yet.
But I feel like I should
Feeling an internal pressure to respond, despite hesitation.
I always liked her
I always had a positive opinion of her.
And I don't want her to think that I don't
Wishing to maintain a positive image in her eyes.
For Christmas, she sent me a chain letter in Danish
Received a Christmas chain letter in Danish from her.
I wanted to tell you, I knew you'd find it funny
Wanted to share this amusing detail with you.
But I can't write you anymore
Expressing the difficulty of communicating with you.
I can't stand that I hurt you
Regret and discomfort about causing you pain.
Can you stand, that you hurt me too?
Questioning your ability to cope with the hurt inflicted.
I can't understand that that's the way things went down
Expressing difficulty in accepting the way things unfolded.
And that those were the premises we had
Reflecting on the foundations and conditions of the past.
And that we have again
Acknowledging the current state of the relationship.
How one day you look into someone's eyes
Recalling the initial intensity of connection and admiration.
And their whole being seems to be glowing like a lamp
Describing the feeling of being radiant together.
On the next day you both look grey
Contrasting the previous glow with a subsequent dullness.
Somehow you blended into the wall
Expressing a sense of fading into the background.
Can anyone see you at all?
Doubting if anyone notices your presence.
I ask around to make sure you're ok
Checking on your well-being through mutual connections.
I hear you're doing fine
Learning that you are doing well.
I hear you met someone
Discovering that you have found someone new.
It makes me feel relieved
Feeling a mix of emotions, including relief.
I want you to be fine
Expressing a sincere wish for your happiness.
It makes me feel slightly weird
Experiencing a complex emotional response.
At the same time
Simultaneously feeling contradictory emotions.
I spent so many years thinking we'd always be glowing
Reflecting on the years spent anticipating perpetual happiness.
I spent so many years thinking we'd always be glowing
Emphasizing the prolonged expectation of enduring radiance.
But we're not glowing anymore
Realization that the glow has faded away.
We're not glowing anymore
Reiterating the absence of the previous radiance.
We're not glowing anymore
Affirming the loss of the glow in the present.
We blended into the wall
Symbolizing the relationship's disappearance and blending into obscurity.
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