If Only
Yearning Echoes: If Only - Matilda Mann's Melancholic Reflections
Lyrics
I shouldn't look for someone like you
I regret seeking someone similar to you
Who daydreams too much about wasting their youth
Referring to someone who excessively daydreams about wasting their youth
And I shouldn't care, and I shouldn't care, but I do
Acknowledging the shouldn't care about this person but admitting to caring
And I shouldn't stay up until 2 AM
Expressing staying up late, troubled by thoughts of what can be fixed
Hopelessly wondering what I can mend
Feeling hopeless while contemplating what can be repaired
And I shouldn't care, and I shouldn't stare, but I do
Acknowledging the shouldn't care and stare but confessing to doing so
And if only I was somebody you wanted
Expressing a desire to be someone the other person wants
Just for the day, but you wanted
Wishing to be wanted by the person, even if just for a day
Someone you know that wouldn't leave
Describing the ideal person as someone who wouldn't leave
I know that's never been me
Acknowledging that this description doesn't fit the speaker
Strange how you don't know just how I think
Reflecting on the mystery of not understanding the other person's thoughts
'Cause I read your mind like it's written with ink
Claiming to understand the other person's mind despite its complexity
Scribbles and mess, but lines that still play with my heart
Comparing the other person's thoughts to messy lines that affect the speaker emotionally
And if only I was somebody you wanted
Reiterating the desire to be someone the other person desires
Just for the day, but you wanted
Expressing the wish to be wanted, even if just for a day
Someone you know that wouldn't leave
Describing the ideal person as someone who wouldn't leave
I know it's not what you need
Acknowledging that the speaker is not what the other person needs
I wrote your name seventeen times
Revealing the act of writing the other person's name multiple times
Just to figure out when, figure out why
Expressing the attempt to figure out when and why
And it's starting again, it's strange, I don't know
Noting the recurrence of feelings and the confusion associated with them
Why you would stay if you knew you would go
Questioning why the other person would stay knowing they would eventually leave
And you called out to me, desperately weak
Describing the other person's call as desperate and weak
With something to say, if you only could speak
Implying that the other person has something to say but can't express it
And I tried to pretend, I just can't deny
Admitting to pretending and struggling to deny certain feelings
That I'd lie just for you if you passed me tonight
Expressing a willingness to lie for the other person
If only I was somebody you wanted
Reiterating the desire to be someone the other person wants
Just for the day, but you wanted
Wishing to be wanted by the person, even if just for a day
Someone you know that wouldn't leave
Describing the ideal person as someone who wouldn't leave
I know that'd never be me
Acknowledging that the speaker is not what the other person needs
I know that'd never be me
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