Lyrics
First day of high school, algebra
Reflecting on the first day of high school, particularly in algebra.
In front of me was the factor of my sadness
The presence of something causing sadness, yet not fully understood at that moment.
I just didn't know it yet
Expressing a lack of awareness about the source of sadness at that time.
Three years ago today
Three years ago from the present day, marking a significant past event.
I think I'm doing okay
Feeling relatively fine or stable at the current moment.
But it scares me that she's still in my head
Despite feeling okay, the persistent presence of someone in thoughts is unsettling.
Then it was New Years Eve
Recalling a New Year's Eve where the realization of an impending departure occurred.
I knew she was gonna leave
Awareness of an upcoming separation or breakup.
Too scared of your past
The person being afraid of the other's past experiences.
You look at me like I was your last
Feeling like the person is treating the speaker as if they were the last option.
Now I'm sitting here with my heart in my hand
Sitting alone with a sense of vulnerability and emotional exposure.
Too scared of your past
Reiteration of the fear related to the other person's past.
You look at me like I was your last
Re-emphasizing the feeling of being the last choice based on the partner's looks.
I wanna let go
Expressing a desire to move on or detach emotionally.
I don't know if I can
Uncertainty about the ability to let go of the emotional attachment.
House party on his birthday
Describing a house party on someone's birthday.
In front of you was the first day of bad habits
The beginning of engaging in negative behaviors or habits.
You still believe everything he said
The person still believes in the words spoken by someone significant.
That was three years ago, but today
Three years later, a decision is made to part ways.
You finally part ways
Despite the decision, there's acknowledgment that full emotional recovery hasn't occurred.
But you know you're not over him yet
Recognition of lingering feelings for the past partner.
Then it was 214
Referring to a specific date, 214, with significance in the story.
Same night that you met me
Connecting the same date to when the speaker and the person met.
Too scared of your past (too scared)
Reiteration of the fear related to the person's past experiences.
You look at me like I was your last
Similar to earlier, feeling perceived as the last option based on looks.
Now I'm sitting here with my heart in my hand
Being in a vulnerable state with emotions laid bare.
Too scared of your past (too scared)
Re-emphasis on the fear linked to the person's past.
You look at me like I was your last
Reiterating the perception of being the last choice based on appearance.
I wanna let go
Expressing the desire to let go emotionally.
I don't know if I can
Uncertainty about the ability to move on from the emotional attachment.
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