Different Times
Navigating Darkness: Matt Wxsted's Journey Through Loneliness and Regret
Lyrics
I been riding ‘round town do not know where to go all I know is I ain’t going home
The speaker is aimlessly driving around town, feeling lost and unwilling to return home.
I been riding ‘round town do not know where to go all I know is I ain’t going home
-I been riding ‘round town do not know where to go all I know is I ain’t going home
-I ain’t ever going home
Emphasis on the reluctance to go home.
I ain’t ever been so low
The speaker expresses a deep emotional low or sadness.
I don’t wanna be alone, no
Desire to avoid being alone.
Every night on my own though
Despite the desire, the speaker is often alone at night.
I don’t wanna die alone
Fear of dying alone.
Taking sips from the styrofoam
Reference to using substances, possibly to cope with emotions.
I don’t wanna be alone, no
-Every night on my own though
-I don’t wanna die alone
-Taking sips from the styrofoam
-Best friends turn to ex-friends
Mention of deteriorating friendships.
Times extra depressing
The times are exceptionally depressing.
Popping anti-depressants
Use of antidepressants, possibly as a coping mechanism.
I might never learn my lesson
Admission of not learning from past mistakes.
Man it’s been a while, since we talked
Reminiscing about past times with a friend.
How you doing?
-Remember we was rocking out on stage
-Crowd moving
-Man you was there with me
-Basement, freestyles, you were always there with me
-And all I feel is regret
Overwhelmed by regret for past actions.
Made mistakes in the past that I choose to neglect
Choosing to ignore or overlook past mistakes.
I don’t know why he left
Acceptance of a friend's departure, though the reason is unknown.
But I kinda accept
-‘Cause I’m not at my best, I stopped drinking less, yeah
Indication of personal improvement by reducing alcohol consumption.
I don’t know how long I have
Uncertainty about life duration.
All I know is I hope you’re glad
A wish for the absent friend's well-being.
I don’t know why I’m low and sad
Expressing feelings of sadness and a longing for the past.
All I know is I miss what we had
-I been riding ‘round town do not know where to go all I know is I ain’t going home
Reiteration of aimlessly driving without a clear destination.
I been riding ‘round town do not know where to go all I know is I ain’t going home
-I been riding ‘round town do not know where to go all I know is I ain’t going home
-I ain’t ever going home
Reaffirmation of not returning home.
I ain’t ever been so low
Reiteration of deep emotional low.
I don’t wanna be alone, no
Desire to avoid loneliness.
Every night on my own though
Despite the desire, the speaker remains alone at night.
I don’t wanna die alone
Fear of dying alone persists.
Taking sips from the styrofoam
Continued reference to using substances to cope.
I don’t wanna be alone, no
-Every night on my own though
-I don’t wanna die alone
-Taking sips from the styrofoam
-I don’t know how long I have
Repetition of uncertainty, longing, and missing the past.
All I know is I hope you’re glad
-I don’t know why I’m low and sad
-All I know is I miss what we had
-I been riding ‘round town do not know where to go all I know is I ain’t going home
Reiteration of aimless driving without a clear destination.
I been riding ‘round town do not know where to go all I know is I ain’t going home
-I been riding ‘round town do not know where to go all I know is I ain’t going home
-I been riding ‘round town do not know where to go all I know is I ain’t going home
Continued repetition of aimlessly driving without a clear destination.
I been riding ‘round town do not know where to go all I know is I ain’t going home
-I been riding ‘round town do not know where to go all I know is I ain’t going home
-I been riding ‘round town do not know where to go all I know is I ain’t going home
-I been riding ‘round town do not know where to go all I know is I ain’t going home
Intensification of the desire not to be alone.
I don't wanna be alone
Repeated expression of the speaker's fear of being alone and using substances for solace.
Every night on my own
-I don’t wanna die alone
-Taking sips from the styrofoam
-I don’t wanna be alone
-Every night on my own
-I don’t wanna die alone
-Take a sip
Final mention of taking a sip, possibly indicating a recurring pattern.
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