Lyrics
I was 13 when it came
I experienced a significant event at the age of 13.
Turning all my world to grey
This event had a profound impact, making my world feel dull and lifeless.
And suddenly my life was cold and strange
As a result, my life became cold and unfamiliar.
I was carried away
I felt overwhelmed and carried away by the situation.
Sinking underneath the waves
I felt like I was sinking under the weight of paranoia.
Of paranoia breaking in my brain
Paranoia was affecting my mind intensely.
Oh i'm older now
Despite getting older, my emotional state remains unchanged.
But time hasn't changed the way I feel inside
Time hasn't healed the emotional pain I carry within.
So I'm closing down
I am choosing to emotionally distance myself.
I'm closing down
I'm consciously withdrawing from certain emotions.
To save myself
This withdrawal is an attempt to protect myself.
I'm closing down
I'm actively shutting down certain aspects of my emotions.
Oh oh oh
Repetition for emphasis on the decision to close down emotionally.
I'm closing down
Emphasizing the act of closing down and keeping inner struggles away.
And shutting all my demons out
The intention is to block out personal demons and struggles.
I kept my secret safe
I've kept a personal struggle hidden.
With half pretended confidence
I pretended to be confident about it, concealing my true feelings.
Just hoping that the clouds would start to fade
Hoping that the difficult times would eventually fade away.
I thought that I could change
I believed I could change my situation.
But I was raw and naked and I didn't have the strength to fight the pain
I was vulnerable and lacked the strength to overcome the pain.
Oh I'm older now
Despite aging, the emotional impact remains deeply rooted.
But time hasn't changed the way I feel inside
Time hasn't lessened the emotional turmoil I feel inside.
So I'm closing down
A repetition of the decision to emotionally withdraw.
I'm closing down
Reiteration of the act of closing down as a means of self-preservation.
To save myself
The decision to close down emotionally is driven by self-preservation.
I'm closing down
Continued emphasis on the act of closing down certain emotions.
Oh oh oh
Repetition for emphasis on the decision to close down emotionally.
I'm closing down
Emphasizing the act of closing down and keeping inner struggles away.
And shutting all my demons out
The intention is to block out personal demons and struggles.
There's a black dog watching over me
Introducing a metaphorical black dog representing inner struggles.
He's waiting for my silent scream
The black dog is waiting for a moment of distress.
But I could deny him if I leave
Leaving the situation can help deny the influence of inner demons.
So I'm closing down
Reaffirmation of the decision to emotionally close down.
To save myself
Repetition of closing down as a way to protect oneself.
I'm closing down
Continued emphasis on the decision to close down emotionally.
Oh oh oh oh
Repetition for emphasis on the decision to close down emotionally.
I'm closing down
Reaffirmation of the decision to emotionally close down.
I'm closing down
Reiteration of the act of closing down as a means of self-preservation.
And shutting all my demons out
The intention is to block out personal demons and struggles.
And shutting all my demons out
Reaffirmation of shutting out personal demons and struggles.
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