Ballad of the Butch
Journey of Reflection: Finding Love Amidst Life's Twists
Lyrics
Where the hell have I been?
Expressing confusion or self-reflection about one's whereabouts or life situation.
I moved so far away just to move back again
Moved away, but returned, possibly indicating a cycle or a sense of not finding what was sought elsewhere.
I took a chance on love but I didn't succeed
Took a risk in love that did not lead to success.
I thought it was what I wanted but it's not what I needed
Realization that what was thought to be wanted was not actually needed.
Ten years spent waiting on all my plans to come true
Ten years spent waiting for plans to materialize, with a realization that expectations were not met.
A variation on the theme that I thought that I knew
A variation on a familiar theme, suggesting a repetition of patterns or experiences.
I guess I bought the cart before I bought the horse
Mistakenly prioritized or planned ahead of essential elements.
I built my ship then set on the wrong course
Constructed something (possibly a relationship or life path) but headed in the wrong direction.
My mama said my life would be hard
Mother's prediction that life would be challenging.
She wrote it on the inside of my twenty first birthday card
Mother's message written inside a birthday card, a persistent reminder.
It's something now that I can't seem to forget
The difficulty of forgetting a message or prophecy about life challenges.
but You get what you get and you don't get upset
An acceptance of life's outcomes with a stoic attitude.
Where the hell have I been?
Reiteration of the initial question, emphasizing a sense of disorientation or confusion.
I stood on the side waiting for someone else's show to begin
Waiting on the sidelines for someone else's show, possibly feeling passive or uninvolved.
And I carried that feeling around in the pit of my bones
Carrying a feeling deep within, acknowledging personal responsibility for the emotional tone.
I ache with knowing that I'm the one who set that tone
Regret over setting a negative tone in life.
My nana said the nearer the bone the sweeter the Meat
Nana's saying about the proximity of challenges making the rewards sweeter.
She sat by the window at night and waited for me
Nana's waiting for the speaker, who didn't return, leading to regret.
I never made back and It's something that I've come to regret
The realization and acceptance of regret, tempered with the philosophy of accepting outcomes.
but You get what you get and you don't get upset
Reiteration of the acceptance of life's outcomes with a calm attitude.
So Where the hell have I been?
Repeating the question, suggesting a continued sense of confusion or searching.
I went back home and somehow found real love again
Returning home and finding genuine love after a period of searching or wandering.
And I carried every bag I had though the door
Symbolic gesture of bringing all personal baggage, including emotional scars, into a new relationship.
Showed up with my Battle scars bleeding from those all of them wars
Acknowledging and displaying the wounds from past struggles or conflicts.
My love tells me I can have everything in my dreams
Expression of support and encouragement from a loved one regarding pursuing dreams.
She tells her daughter the same thing down by the maplewood stream
Passing on the same supportive message to the next generation.
We try to put her to bed she begs not yet!
A playful interaction about bedtime, contrasting with life's uncertainties.
I say You get what you get and you don't get upset
Reiteration of the stoic acceptance of life's outcomes, even in moments of playfulness.
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