Lyrics
I’m always seeing different shades of you
I constantly perceive different aspects of your personality.
and in my mind they look the same
In my thoughts, these aspects appear consistent or unchanged.
But when it turns to crimson red from midnight blue
However, when emotions shift from calm (midnight blue) to intense (crimson red), hope or positivity diminishes.
The silver lining fades away
The positive outlook (silver lining) disappears during intense emotional moments.
I'm looking pale and I need something new
I appear unwell or distressed, seeking a change or improvement.
You used to take away the pain,
In the past, you used to alleviate my pain.
Now we always have a different point of view
Now, our perspectives diverge, yet I still yearn for you.
Still I'm calling out your name
Despite the differences, I continue to call out your name.
But you’re pushing me aside like it ended
You're excluding me as if our connection has ended.
and i’m trying to understand it
I attempt to comprehend the situation.
You’re fucking with all my senses
You're disturbing all my senses, causing inner turmoil.
And now my mind is too conflicted...
My mind is now in a state of internal conflict.
By this so-called love
This love is described as "so-called," indicating uncertainty or doubt.
I just can’t get my head around it
I struggle to understand or accept this complex love.
Cause it hurts enough
The pain is significant, making it challenging to go back to the initial state of love.
How can we go back to the place we started in this so-called love? In this so-called love.
Reiteration of the difficulty in returning to the initial state of love.
I don’t want you to be my alcohol
I don't want you to be a source of dependency like alcohol.
now you’re a habit and i’m never gonna break it
You've become a persistent habit that I find difficult to break.
and I’m crying & I’m bleeding with my head against the wall Back to square one and I can’t reshape it
Expressing emotional distress, crying, and feeling trapped with no solution.
You’re pushing me aside like it ended
You're treating me as if our relationship has concluded.
and I’m trying to understand this
I struggle to comprehend this situation.
I can’t figure out my senses
My senses are in disarray, and I can't make sense of it.
and now my mind is so conflicted...
Similar to line 13, the mind is in a conflicted state.
By this so-called love
Reiteration of the challenges posed by this uncertain or troubled love.
I just can’t get my head around it
Continued struggle to understand or accept the complexities of love.
Cause it hurts enough
The pain is intense and hinders the possibility of returning to the initial love.
How can we go back to the place we started in this so-called love? In this so-called love
Reiterating the difficulty of returning to the initial state of love.
Still beggin', still needing
The plea for understanding and reconciliation persists.
We made mistakes, we’re repeating now
Admitting to repeating mistakes and facing the consequences.
I’m crying and i’m bleeding for this so-called love.
Expressing emotional pain and suffering for the so-called love.
Still angry and I'm feeling
Despite anger, there is a recognition of the need for healing.
We made a mess, now we’re healing
Acknowledging the mess created and the ongoing process of healing.
I’m trying to believe in this so-called love.
Struggling to believe in the uncertain or troubled nature of this love.
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