For Once in My Life
Love's Loyalty Unraveled: Melissa Ferrick's Tale of Betrayal
Lyrics
You told me
You conveyed a promise or assurance to me
That you would love me forever
Commitment to love me indefinitely
N' you told me
Reiteration of your pledge
That you couldn't love anyone else
Claiming exclusivity in your love
So you left me
You departed from me
To study in the country
Left to pursue education in a rural area
Now I find
Discovering that you are engaged with someone else
That you're just studying
Your focus is on studying someone new
Somebody else
Realization that I've been replaced
N' for once in my life
Expressing a rare instance of loyalty
I was loyal
Uncharacteristic commitment from me
For once in my life
A period of personal strength
I was strong
Behaving honestly, a departure from the norm
For once in my life
Reflection on a rare occasion of being wrong
I was honest baby
Admitting to a mistake in judgment
N' for once in my life
Recognizing an error in my actions
I was wrong
Acknowledging personal fallibility
But I'm not
Rejecting the impulse to rescue or save you
I am not gonna try to save you
Declining attempts to change you
N' I'm not
Emphasizing your agency in the choice
I am not gonna try to change you
Request for clarity if you genuinely desire someone else
If she is how you really want
Emotional turbulence becoming uncontrollable
You'd better let me know
Reiterating a unique moment of loyalty
'Cause my emotions
Highlighting personal strength
They are starting to get out of control
Being transparent and truthful
N' for once in my life
Admitting a rare instance of being wrong
I was loyal
Reiteration of uncommon loyalty
For once in my life
Recalling a period of personal strength
I was strong
Reflecting on a time of honesty
For once in my life
Acknowledging a past mistake
I was honest baby
Expressing contrition for being wrong
N' for the first time in my life
An admission of wrongdoing repeated
I was wrong. I was wrong. I was wrong.
Acknowledgment of personal error emphasized
But you see
Addressing the irony of the situation
You told me
Reiteration of your commitment to everlasting love
That you would love me forever
Restating your exclusive love declaration
N' you told me
Recalling your inability to love others
That you couldn't love anyone else
Reaffirming your commitment to me
So you left me
Leaving again, this time for Pennsylvania
To study in Pennsylvania
Discovering your focus on someone else
N' now I find
Realization that you are studying someone new
That you are just studying
Confirmation that you are engaged with someone else
Somebody else
Reiteration of your current study focus
Yeah, now I find that you are just
Emphasizing the act of studying someone new
You're just studying somebody else
Repeating the observation of your focus on someone else
I am left
Left alone to contemplate and understand myself
Just studying myself
Engaging in self-reflection after the relationship
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